Hi guys another sunny day today (brrrr) any way... no more delay... just check out the new style tht I display....
Fast li£e the gamcare rapper!
Hi diary, Love & peace
Stay strong Fast li£e
Hi Fast,
Not sure that last post would make a best seller lol but I'm sure you understand it and it has helped you to get it out.
No worries in not being around you have your own stuff to deal with, the smoke machine will be waiting for you to have a virtual pint when you are ready 🙂
Smokes out
haha.. I know wht u mean abt tht post.. thats why its a gonner now!..Tnx for the support m8t.
I have decided to talk openly.. but I think I will concentrate on other issues other than my personal stuff just in case someone reads it who I know ....I aint annonymous on this site because I really dont care who knows im a recovering CG they can just like it or lump it as far as im concerned. Gambling should be banned is the bottom line! Because why are so many people ashamed of their sordid little affairs with lady luck...Have you been injured in an accident lately YOU could claim compensation......ERR yeh im psychologically injured and i want my lost money back and on top of it im s***g for damages...That racks up too err £50k please thank you ...cured!
Gambling = accident ? yes cozz everytime i lost I always said, "it was an accident"!
Peace & love
Hi diary..I suppose all you cgs are doing your christmas shopping?...Well, I tried parking in Tesco today and it took at least 30mins.
Oh Very Last minute shopping is what I like doing! Haha...
Anyway, I had a really good talk last night on chat with the guys... And I was saying dyu think us cgs who kick the habit, become obsessive and compulsive in other ways?
I am just trying to get some feedback on this matter because hey things for me lately have been strange....Maybbe its because the gambling is no longer relevant in my brain and now its choosing something else to pick at...Because like the rest of you... we have been through the WHAT IF motions a billion times.... And it really ate away at our minds....However, I dont think the pain of merely plain and simple existence is bearable in a full health situation....
Basically I heard this once and its true ...A high number of people are frightened to do things in case something happens....But if you do nothing does something happen?....The answer to that is YES the world passes you by!!....So I chose to do lots of things these days and hey if it kills me in the process it was my fate....
Love.
Fast li£e
When you encounter someone and then you think you know them.....Well it isnt the full picture...but sooner or later you will find out what this person is really like because no matter what you do and try to cover up...people will always uncover your secrets..So, try to be honest and all will prevail....I do hope you guys are happy ..and keep your honest opinions open.... I have been a devil in my life...And I regret every second that I breathed it!! I will never make the same mistakes again EVER!!
Regards.
Nice one Fast, good to get it all down on paper, im glad you are posting again mate.
Smokes
Thanx smokes that makes me feel proud to be a part of your mind.
Fast
Hey Fast Life,
Good to read things are going well for you, and you seem to have this thing beaten and bang to rights. Honesty with yourself is always the best policy.
As for letting life pass you by, don't! I try and do something I love at least once a month, even if it is just a small thrill or pleasure.
Keep the faith and keep away from the gambling.
All the best,
Ryan
Tnx leedso m8t.
Well I had a great night tonite with my missus....We have somehow rejuvenated our relationship!! It is really a brand new thing...Feels great! I had a couple of beers (unusual for me but I took the hint from a recent post) Hey life isnt that bad after all.. I am much more positive about my future, my career, everything...Although tomorrow awaits and its back to the studies...Im dreading going back to uni (if at all)....Anyway better get some sleep...
Nite all!
Fast.
Hi Fast
It was nice to read your last post m8.Its good to see things are going well for you and you have rejuvenated your relationship.You have worked hard kid and deserve it .All the best Jeff.
Tnx ex gambler jeff..
Really good to read your post...I guess my downfall recently was maybe because I cut down on my posting? And probably left me with an open wound for it to become infected in some way or other.......Trouble is in this life you have to be very careful who you open your heart to...Because some people dont understand how our minds work....Not even our closest know how we tick sometimes....I guess us cg's know too well the emotions that we go through! Guys, thank you for taking time to read my posts... really makes me feel like living!! I am just glad that my family and you guys are on my side through thick and thin... When money problems untangle themselves, be prepared for what life throws at you and stand up to it because hey! (" IM GONNA FACE THIS NOW"!) the payment you get from life is not synthetic or materialistic, it is the kind of reward that makes you and yours proud.
Fast. li£e
Hi Fast,
It is great having you back, I think you are the classic cg in recovery in that when you are down, you are very down and punish yourself, but no need my friend.
As you mentioned you are rich in the important things in life and as long as you stay off the gambling the rest takes care of itself.
Have a good Sunday Fastlife 🙂
Smokey
Tnx for your support smokes..I hope you are feeling ok too?...
Well I look at myself & wander what all my wallowing in self pity is really all about? For my darkest days are still yet to come. What a joke I have been...People should really be laughing at me, but instead all you give me is support & I am so grateful for that.... I guess that I have everything that some people dont have...".Why be so selfish m8t"! I ask myself...My last bought of depression was very, very serious and almost life threatening and at the time it seemed nothing could have resolved it...I cant believe it got to a point where I stopped eating and couldnt sleep...That is definitely way out of character for me (unless I had been gambling of course).....I think I have hit my first milestone in recovery and yes smokes I think you are right in saying that this is the classic hallmarks of a cg in recovery.
Well guys I have recovered from whatever was bothering me but I certainly have not recovered from being a cg....
Dont ever underestimate your " ID & superego" It is one potent muther & can ruin your life if you let it.
Fast li£e
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