Starting again.

Anyway diary....hows things? hmmmm ok...im going to right now carry on.... my library based literature review...byezzz

Goddammit ran out of ink ..more money on c rap ohh well...It will be worth it in the end...I hope 🙂

Hi diary,

Lately I have been talking cr ap but hey I have to keep the fire burning....I am quite P***** off with my petty job and I really want to be a part of a big company that has fancy christmas do's and stuff...I really feel like im missing out on something....for instance, tonight I was going to go uptown and I did...Trouble is that I found all the good places have closed down?...That was weird....Then I went to my old local... nothing...On to a long drive and a good think...I came up with the conclusion that I aint missing out on anything at all and im lucky to have a family waitng for me at at home...

Enjoythe rest of your night.

Exactly, you're richer than you thought. Pass me another bottle of whisky easy, we can do this 🙂

Lol smokes....

I have a weird one today...Well today has been great I suppose in fact... I feel good....However, I feel like mister lonely...Although, I aint?....I am sure there is a chemical imbalance in my brain..I need to change the CD I think... its tupac...Hes depressing....mebbe?.....Anyway, I am almost positive someone from my real life is closely monitoring what I am up to.. and quite frankly I dont give a rats a**.. who cares to hone in on me! Look we do what we do...I aint ashamed.. and if you dont like it.. up yours!

Peace on the planet...and the stars 2.

Crazy stuff .....but all good, I read something just now and I really wish I could express it although I am to weak to do it. It was a saying about a persons' actions...it went on to say dont explain your actions keep them in your heart... and let people judge you by your appearance!!

I like that a lot.... Just something to think about.....

Easy £

Hi diary..Its me again the guy who is a slave to the machine (except you dont put money in this 1)...Its all technology and gadgets...I dont blame people who are going crazy...All the real things in the world have been squeezed until there is no natural life left inside them and then we just become a image...We all want to live the dream....Unfortunately there is no dream its a man made false reality that will just bleed your heart dry until not one drop of life is left inside you........I feel sorry for the younger generation because there minds are awash with a distorted media that tells them gambling is gr8 and drugs are cool and you will live forever! I have seen the look on peoples faces it is that of greed, jealousy and hate....I just think things are getting really out of hand or maybe they arent and I have only just finally opened my eyes to what is really going on in this country! We are crying about our addiction and feeling sorry for ourselves saying ohhh I could have had this much money if I didnt do it!...HAA what a joke because we probably would of stuffed ourselves to death with junk food or something like that ...because after all it was greed that drove us to do it in the first place!....Ignore me but I know, and so do you, that this is the truth of the matter...we are all bored little people with no power because the machines have the power these days...The only way to get any say in this country is have a massive wallet....And when you do have that you will find that you are just the loneliest guy on the planet.....

My problems are greater than what I thought they were....But before I just used to cover them up with addiction...Now its an open wound...Feel free to infect it...Because if you dont somebody else will....

Sorry guys just my brain damage is inflicting words on paper instead of throwing knives at people...The pen is mightier than the sword..So, thats how I channel my energy these days by writing it all down...Hopefully, when I leave this world that someone other than my family will remember me for what I really am.....A human.

Love & life

Hi diary just wanted to say that tonight was good in chat..keep up the good work....and hey 1 thing I want to mention if you have money dont be fooled to throw it away...Try to be happy with money...not HAPPY WITHOUT IT!!!

Fast>>>>easy>>>£

Hi diary...well today I aint going to say anything negative..as the waters for me are calm... just floating along the road of life... taking things in my stride....Looking forward to a nice christmas at home with a bit of music and a couple of beers maybe....Ahh it should be fun to see the kids unwrapping presents in the warmth of our house....With no stresses and no worries...Just good nuclear family quality time...Now that is reality...

Take care ..and see you later on chat hopefully!

Eas£y

...and this reality should happen far more often! Bookies opening earlier and later is a massive, massive step towards stopping families from being together and that to me is a huge shame.

But what really matters is that you seem really happy within yourself and really looking forward to watching your kids opening their Christmas presents.

GT

Thanks for the post mate,i can't get the link you asked for to work anymore either,....i will try to re-find it and let you know.

Seano.

Hi easy life. How are you? I've been reading your posts and I've not really been able to work out how you are? Is everything ok? I don't mean in a gambling sense, I mean in a life kind of way. It's nice that you are looking forward to Christmas. It means a lot to so many people. So much in some cases that it drives them to gamble harder and harder. That's something you and I will not be doing. All the best Russ

Hi Russ/Seanostars...good to hear from you!

Well diary, someones been asking me if I am ok.....Well, I am fine ....I just need a break from "the life" that I lead...I get up go to the gym come home and study...then other days im at UNI...ohh yh, at the moment I am a driver for a temping company, who employs me to escort them to Lego land (windsor)...Its for companies christmas do's.....Guys, I am a very strong minded, but sensitive! Person from a big family.....Its all good I am doing well in my life and its make or break time for me... thats why I am under a bit of pressure.....I get moody I suppose because I dont socialise enough but that will all change soon.. I hope!..When I land my dream job!!... I am using the forum to channel my energy into a diary..Something to look back on and laugh when I succeed in my life....I AM GONNA FACE THIS NOW!!....remember my first post it started like this....I want to become successful & im going to do it with your help!......And those days of becoming succesful are getting closer and closer...As gambling fades into a former life forever distant!!....I thank the lord for helping me through all of these turbulent times...And secondary to that my heart felt friends from GAMCARE!!

Merry christmas.

xxxx

Great post Easy! you're going to make the most of your life now and the the further we get from gambling the stronger we all become ey 🙂

Jules x