Starting again.

Hi guys!!!

Every thing is rosy!!! I just wish I had realised sooner cozz it seems time is of the essence these days....I am loving life to the max atm....My midlife crisis is over!!! (i hope)...It all boils down to control in EVERY ASPECT OF LIFE....You can do it!! There is no secrets its just plain and simple!

Easy Li£e

xxx

HI evry 1 tnx for da posts....well today is another day in the life of........And thats that....Problem solved!!....Be good!!

Easy li£e

Hi diary....

Hi,

I actually lost 290 quid the other day :(..gutted!!! But the good news is it wasnt gambling (well kind of)...It was an internet scam and they done me up good and proper how embarassing lol....Anyway, water under the bridge haha..All is good my relationship is ok.... have no urges coming up to the year mark ,I have well over 10k saved up and UNI is coming to an end very soon... I have set my goals already and I am going to go all the way!!.....Lets hope I dont get hit by a bus now!!

Easy li£e

Hidiary....

Be real to life... I have found that if you put your mind to anything you can easily do it although sometimes it takes longer than usual to get where you are going...I have come to realise when you reach your goal you have to be thinking about where you are going.. again!!?... that way you never ever give up achieving your goals...So, just keep going.... love yourself and everyone will love you!!!....That is the way forward!...

Be good!

P.s I am absolutely happy that it has been nearly 1 year of complete abstinence from gambling...which is all down to Gamcare and you guy so thank you!...

Easy life!

Well im off to the gym to do a bit of spinning this morning!..just thought I'd pop in and say hello.....

Easy li£e

There are lots of little problems in life....Gambling just starts off as 1 too...However, you can put every problem in one category if you want?...It is called "GAMBLING".

Easy li£e

Well proud of my son today! He is progressing well, according to the teachers at parents evening.

Easy li£e

Back to UNI Monday...Roll on to grad day!

Last night was cool...Ate out with all the family and went bowling...Lots of fruit machines...No sign of a gamble except that blasted punching machine haha...

Off for a swim today with the kids!

Glad to see that life is good with you mate--only just over a couple of weeks until you hit that one year mark. Well done.

All the best

Stumper

Thank you stumper! How is your recovery going?

Something pathetic happened last night..In the bowling alley...It was the second night in a row that we went....My daughter started playing that 10p machine where the money falls off the tray into the bottom for you to put it back in again...Anyway, she was doing well and I was watching her as she was trying to win a fiver that was bunged on the top (which she never won) she said that I should try.... and I declined as for my total abstinence from gambling.... Well I dont know whether I wanted to gamble or what but this is what happened.....All the change machines were out of order because if you put a note in it just tried to chew it up...,,, I overheard the last lot of children had jammed it full of 2ps... My daughter had paid for 2 bolwing games for five people by card. I only took a tenner in cash.....However, in between turns of bowling my missus wanted change for the kids to use the punching machine...We tried several times at the bar when ordering drinks...We found it a labourous effort to find change and buy an unwanted drink, to which we was weeing in the toilets all night...So, I came up with a plan! Why dont we shove a tenner in the machine?? it gives you 2 pound in plays and £8 back .....ok fine! My missus done it with her tenner and used the £2 in credits and I pressed the collect button for her to get her £8 in change......Within an hour we needed change again.. well I still had my tenner...So, I gave it to my missus and she put it in the machine...We played the £2 and on the last credit I asked her do you want to play on or collect your £8? ... she said, what do you think it is going to pay...I dont know what I was thinking although I know that a few wrong buttons were pressed and the tenner was gone...I felt really angry and P***** off...I havnt gambled for almost a year and then this happpened...FFS!! I am not happy at all!!....How did this happen?...Did I make it happen....I dont understand & I think I should come clean!!...Gutted really if I have just wasted one year...To go and jump back to square one...The good news is we left without the need to continue although I did feel stupid, angry and like getting my money back....I dont know what to do I think it is a depressing situation and it caught me offgaurd....What do you think?

My missus is re assuring me that I never gambled...Although I'm not as sure as her?........She reckons she was in control, however, . I think that my intentions were not to gamble..So, it was almost as if we didnt..Because of the situation with the change, I think that the actual gamble was very unexciting...However, I think my mind was slightly out of control with anger and stupidity... after the money went.....

Easy li£e

Hi

Hi, for what it's worth, I don't think you have failed in anything.

I think you are giving yourself a hard-time because of your previous gambling life. I don't think there is much need for it. You acted like a normal person in effect. 'Normal' people sometimes put cash in those machines and, after losing etc, get annoyed for a bit and then let it go. They don't chase. They may not play a machine again for 10 days, 20 days, six months etc...but when they do...it's all the same.

This is how you acted. And today you are beating yourself up for doing a very 'normal' thing. I'm not suggesting you go back tonight and fill it up - lol - or even play it again next time you go. This year off gambling has given you valuable insight into yourself and your habit and you now have the power to act in any which way you choose.

So you had a wee gamble...is it ideal? Well, no. But does it really matter, in the greater scheme of things, NOT A BIT! You will be just fine my friend.

My mate had a cigar on Friday night. He hasn't smoked for four years after quitting with his Mrs. It doesn't make him a smoker again...and it hasn't meant he's undone anything. After he was sick (lol) it re-confirmed the reason why he no longer smokes...maybe you could reflect on that and use it to remind yourself why you chose to stop gambling.

You have the wheel my friend. Take yourself wherever you want to go.

All the best

Matt

Tnx for that I understand what you mean, although, I will definitely reflect on the situation.....I will probably use your post as a positive guide for any near experiences in the future..... So, I can still celebrate my 1yr without gambling then -£10...haha..

easy li£e

Sory to read that you feel bad about your experience at the bowling. I think sometimes that we can think that gambling of any kind was totally ok before we decided to stop but since that time it has become totally illegal with punishment equalling death and a £10 fine or something of that ilk. You did not like the feeling afterwards so rather than think of it as failure, think of it as a reminder that to go back to your old ways is something you neither want or deserve. You have done fantastically well over the last year and long may it continue.

all the best

Stumper

ps my recovery is going great. No urges to go into the bookies at all.