Starting again.

Easy,

Just wanted to add my support to your recovery. I haven't read the whole diary but have read enough to love your attitude to this. I think we can all learn something from you that yeah its going to be hard but we should actually enjoy everyday that we are free from these demons.

I genuinely wish you all the luck in the world mate but remember to keep that guard up and stay alert and stay strong.

I CANNOT WIN BECAUSE I CANNOT STOP !!!!!!!!

I'm thinking of getting this tatooed on my forearm!

A38.....

That is ......A BRILLIANT IDEA!!

How original!!

I wish you well.....It certainly IS the best thing I have ever heard!!

.....That really has got me thinking and it has reminded me something that my 16 year old nephew said to me the other day....He said he wanted a tattoo on his arm saying, "Life isnt given it is borrowed".....?? I thought what a load of coddswallop...However, he explained that life isn't yours, it was given by the almighty and one day he is going to take it back......................... Reminds me of gambling.......

Happy £aster.

Easy li£e.

Easy li£e.

i hope everything is well and u managin keep the demonms at day they always be there it hard at times i no but with time and support im hopin we can beat these horrible demons together i wish u well freind x

Easy - thanks for the post and the kind words. I am honestly seriously thinking about this tattoo idea! It would look wierd I know and people would ask questions I know but hey if it stops me from ever gambling again then it would have saved my life!

Well done on the year + not gambling mate. I can't imagine how much will power that has taken and I just hope to god I can get there.

Today is the 3rd day of the rest of my life.

Have a good one mate and stay strong.

Another nice day!

Easy li£e

Hi Easy

Just wanted to pop in m8 and say well done on your continued abstainance.Excellent work Jeff.

Tnx Jeff... You are always welcome m8t...I will catch up with you soon I'm sure!!

Easy Li£e

2 major training sessions 2day....Spinning 12 oclock...Then boxercise...at 8pm-9....Nice and heavy stuff....Burnt x amount of cals..

Easy li£e

Have to get down the gym 2day for some studio cycling.

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Easy li£e

Nearly there...

I actually laugh in the face of the devil...

Q. What is it that actually stops you from doing things?

A. If it isn't you then it must be other people.

Easy li£e.

Hi diary.......

Today is another day in the life of an ex gambler...Nothing exciting!, But hey that's life...It must be a good thing?

Easy li£e

Overcoming gambling has been me being able to put aside a major defeat in my life....

It has just dawned on me!...Thing is, the very thought of going back to it scares the hell out of me...

I hope that this is a normal reaction....

I believe my biological clock is ticking away and I take much less risks these days?...Unless they are calculated one of course...

Education is probably the main reason of my abstinence from gambling because I spend most of my time busy...Training and studies..

Although, I do get tired from it all....I just don't have urges to gamble anymore which is great....

The times I have lost are actually unbelievable...How can anyone torment themselves to the point of becoming worthless, hungry and homeless?

I must have had some real issues....and I believe I still do have the same issues.

However,dealing with them is all I had to do. Maybe I wasn't ready?

Or it could be that I realised finally I had lost and given up....

Anyway I just thought I would share my thoughts and the way I feel on this day!

Easy li£e

Hi diary.

A great day today..So, enjoy it!

Easy li£e

Even now at this stage you are SMART enough to evaluate what is wrong, top man keep going,for your sanity!!

Easy - Like Lee says after all this time not gambling you still take each day at a time and document how you are feelinng and I can see how much this helps you continue your recovery.

I am finished tormenting myself too. Never am going back to smashing myself about in the name of 'enjoyment' and 'relaxation'. What is relaxing about standing numb in front of the tv, mouth dry, body in a cold sweat not wantng to move or speak. Doent sound very relaxing to me.