Starting again.

Tnx Lee +A38..

I like the comments and have given them a little bit of thought....

I definitely take on board everything that people say... I treat every comment with respect..

Adding it to my thoughts and quite frankly without it.. The puzzle doesn't quite fit and reveal what I need from the recovery!! INPUT...

Knowing what is wrong is a good thing I suppose?....

Trouble is for many years I chose to ignore it...

Nowadays, I cannot let it destroy me and choose to do something about the trail of mess that is behind me!!

Enjoy your time.

Easy li£e

I actually need negative criticsm....It is a good thing and doesn't hurt...

For one.. we are all victims of victims...

I believe going home without saying a thing after being robbed constantly by a silent machine is really spooky...

How weird that looks on paper?

I am waffling...But I read that people all make excuses for the way they feel....Some say I'm getting old..Others believe that they are ugly...Others have more personal issues....

However, it all boils down to...PEOPLE DON'T BELIEVE THEY ARE GOOD ENOUGH!!! For some reason or other!!

Confidence...

If you believe it, it is true!! Simple as that...

The whole universe likes you and is happy with the way you choose and how you feel....Nothing is bad in this world...Unless you think it is...THAT IS WHY YOU HAVE STOPPED!!!.....

Think about it...I am starting to look deeper into my life! We have deep rooted fears...If I never thought the way I did ''negativly'' then nothing would have hurt me...And the people that actually are doing bad stuff will leave you alone and find someone else....I am on to something here and I just wanted to share it...I have ordered a book that looks into all of this and I am excited at the prospects it holds for my future!!

Easyli£e

Easy, i never tried to be negative towards you in anyway,so apologies if the message was mis construde.

I think reading your thread annoyed me more than anything, i am sick of hearing we all go through each day because we "know" that we are going to have a blip, well sorry i dont want a blip i want to have a life going forward without having a blip. I dont want to gamble again and i going to bloody well make sure my life is gamble free,so no matter what problem comes along the way im not going to turn back to the evils of a betting shop.

We are all so positive yet we all think we will fail?? lets not do that.

Lee...that last post wasn't aimed at you....? I am trying to say that people's confidence could be higher than what it is...for instance confident people do not blame others for the way that they are!....there really shouldn't be any excuses for people to lose their money...but it is a harsh reality that is happening right now....I just believe there is actually a root cause.....Having a flutter is a sad excuse because I don't know anyone who can say they have had fun gambling....If they have? Well good luck 2 them..

A problem is a problem if you make it one....that is the reason gambling is legalised.....it all depends on how you feel about it...what I do or say doesn't matter...its what you think is right! Don't ever believe that you are not strong enough or good enough....I think what I said is not what I meant....what I did mean is be happy and smile and the world will smile back....with huge rewards!!!

Easy liFe..

Too true just think we all fixate on the gambling too much sometimes.yes we know we have a problem and yes we know we need to stop,but fundamentally we then let that consume us as much as when we did gamble!? weird cycle!!

Really hard to lead "a normal life" without money but yours as much as mine is that why did we let it happen to us in the first place? thats what annoys and makes us question qhether we are as smart as we would like to think we are? does that make sense? its that question that is at the forefront of alot of struggles,especially the question i ask myself.

We have so many educated and decorated people on these forums, so why has nobody asked that question?

What do you think?

not taking anything personal,i know we all have to rant at some point,its all a support network and i appreciate everything on all the forums.

Have a nice one mate.

Great posts Easy and Lee - very entertaining reading and thought provoking.

I think it is a confidence issue. We all have deep rooted confidence issues and that is a big factor in why we find escapism in gambling. To the outside world I probably appear very confident as a consultant at work and being the 'life and soul' at the pub with my mates - but the truth is I do have confidence issues and when I am on my own I have blocked these out with gambling.

Anyway just thinking out load really but good to look a bit deeper into these things.

Keep it easy mate. All rooting for you.

Good points, i have always been confident once comfortable in my environment, its just that it is the pure rush of not being "YOU" for a moment in time.

Easy hope everything is alright with you at present.

Good point with the confidence issue. I know for me there is an element of that with my own gambling. It definitely started out as an escapism from the troubles going on at home; I found gambling somehow, obviously liked it as an activity to begin with, then over the years used it as my permanent escape when I needed to run away from stuff and couldn't (or didn't) want to face things. This all happened at a subconscious level most of the time. I also appeared very confident to the outside world but that was not the case on the inside. Keep up the good work...

Hi diary..

Tnx 4 posting much apreciated!

Well it is certainly a learning curve.!

Easy li£e

Hi diary...

Tnx again for the posts...Really pleased with the feedback....

I am thinking that maybe I over analyse things too much? Maybe that is a bit too extreme and gets the better of me sometimes....However, if I can just sail through life, against the turbulent winds it will all pass and I finally will reach calm waters and be at peace.....

Easy li£e

I have decided to take my life one day at a time and try to forget about the dreams...

Because whether it is money/ love or both that you pursue....You will eventually have to face the reality of it all!! It isn't ever going to happen, so, just pick yourself up and move on.....

Easy li£e

Hi easy glad to hear your well and keeping up the philosophical thinking!

I have been having the wierdest dreams since I quit gambling. A lot of them are are pure gambling like watching the ball rolling round the wheel and looking at the roulette table and thinking about different chip patterns. But others are really really odd and I can't even explain them!

Keep going strong pal.

Hi tnx 4 post's guys!

Well I have been dreaming a lot lately but it is good ones... .... and that is that really......

Easy li£e

“All the evidence shows that God was actually quite a gambler, and the universe is a great casino, where dice are thrown, and roulette wheels spin on every occasion”

Easy li£e

Hi,

just like 2 say urges and gambling is never far away.....Luckily for me I have it under control...Still fighting this demon!!

easy li£e