Starting again.

Thanks guys..

Really feels good to get the support....Pauls? Gambling is legal in Laos? I know of the casino there...It is the very place I started to gamble again and caused my recent relapse...Anyway, on the job front I am thinking that the best place for me to work is here in the dreaded UK...

Once I get back I will be ready to go and all cylinders will be firing...Hopefully I will come back with new ideas....Running away! No way IM GONNA FACE THIS NOW!... However, I do feel like running and doing over those payday loans companies...However, it isnt worth it for peanuts.....I did recently turn down a substansial loan...I think it was wise....I have to face up to things and earn money the proper way...The trouble is my mind has been so far away into studies and b******t educated bookworm stuff...It finally has come down to earth and I have realised that life isnt at all about loans and more loans and student loans (I even tasted the street life recently and it is exactly the same as before ((the way I left it)), sad, bad and even more depressing)...haha...It sure was good though while I had it!!

I have been really lucky despite all the losses....Really, even if I spent half of my money on gambling I sure as hell spent the other on sightseeing, eating out, hotels, womanising and drinking (none of it has made me a better person) ....So, I should count myself very fortunate....

Lastly, although I am off I not really looking forward to it....I still cant seem to make up my mind these days on anything at all.... Exhaustion....umm...I cant even get out of bed these days.... I am back to square one....selling my car and nearly completely skint without a job.....The only peace of mind I really do have is my DEGREE.....maybe that zap of sunshine will help me??........

I JUST WANTED TO REMIND MYSELF ...THE SICKNENING PART WHEN YOU DECIDE TO HAND OVER YOUR DD CARD TO BOOKIES AND CONSTANTLY DRAIN ALL OF YOUR FUNDS ...THEN IT SHOWS UP ON YOUR STATEMENT.....ARGHGH!!

NEVER AGAIN....

I JUST WANT an....... easy li£e

Eazy, you're bang on so 'Bopenyan' or' May pen lai' dependant on what side of border 🙂 Was my lazy mind thinking and not really relevant, I know the casino, the lake! Poin,t loss there I guess then. Good loook to you to and yes 'never again'

Yes -It is called Savannakhet vegas and its a fake casino...I don't think anyone has ever won...u geT more luck at shipleys arcade fair ground....anyway its nr mekong river bordering crossing fro Mukdahan...

Easy li£e

Casino of Nam Ngum lake my haunt! Bopenyan - a way of life all us g/c's could do with learning.

Strength and honour to you easy

Good luck on your travels mate.

I was reading about you seeing withdrawals on your statement--why not put a copy of it into your wallet and everytime you get an urge have a look at the amounts that have drained from your account in the past. May help may not--who knows.

I once knew a priest who was one of the nicest people you could ever meet. Lovely man who always had time to chat and help others. Never had a care in the world. Got knocked down and killed by a bus that had mounted the kerb!! We never know what is around the corner--make the most of your life and never let an opportunity pass by if you think it is the right opportunity for you.

Deal with today and handle all that it throws at us and we can deal with tomorrow later.

All the best

Stumper

I never realised that..if I gamble anythime soon even in two years time....I will be back to sqaure one and probalbly easily lose a heck of a lot of money....

Easy li£e

I just want to say that..Dont ever book a flight with BUDGETAIR... They have charged me twice.....:( You see, when you become a winner you start to lose...It will be ok I suppose..Just a huge strain...

Easy li£e

I dont think going away is good..because I have been charged twice, over 1k for a flight that I may nt even board now...It is down to the bank and company....the payment is out but another payment for the same amount is earmarked to come out...I really feel like not paying my bills...Guess what I rang the company and topped up over £15 on my phone to be put on answering machine and losing all my credit...Then I phoned from home...The joke about all this is I had just enough money before and now everything is upside down. No money, this country is f******g depressing , no wonder why people gamble to escape from themselves.

Company is rude

bank is rude

I understand when things like this happen people need to take up some form of addiction

I give up

no motivation

just worry

...Reality is that money is paper...

Li£e

I pray that one day I will look back on this and laugh...Really hope so!!

I found out something today....However, it cost me a further £130 🙁

Anyway, this is the story...A few days ago I was in gamble mode..As I had just lost over 1k in the bookies...All down to stupidity...Well a few days ago I stated on my diary that I arrived home desperate...I stupidly entered a brand new casino and spent my remaining funds on a £100 pound spin of some huge jackpot machine..I dont even know what it was, and frankly I do not care...Anyway, up until today I have been wondering where this money has gotten too because it never showed on my statement....Here's the glitch...A couple of days ago the casino in name rang me and asked if everything was ok??? I said I only used the casino once (and I never ever intend to use it again) She said ohh no!! everythings fine??? Random? The silly thing is because of my recent nightmare with the airline I have been on my main email. correspending back and forth...Recently I set up a new email account....I have not opened the account at all.....So, what I am guessing is that the company could not verify me until I opened there welcome email...So, the money could not come out of my account until they opened it....Guess, what ??? I opened the email...... 🙁 minus 123 quid....

I just want to put gambling into the void for it never to return....Money is going to be tight but im going to get through this some way or other....Have not gambled .....urges umm yh....control HELL YH!!

8 days have passed....

Whatever will be, will be....Take care and speak soon....

Easy life...

P.s

I know it will work out for all of us.....Just dont expect to win anything, Easy.

🙂

10th Jan 2012

"I understand when things like this happen people need to take up some form of addiction"

Take care

Hiya Easy,

Your way to page 5! Just popping in to say hello and hope your okay...I'm assuming you are off on your travels. Look forward to your next post.

Love Del x