Starting again.

I dont know ...maybbe a distraction...I am glad I never!

Hope is the only thing that I can wish for now!

Confidence will shine once again like rays of sunshine through my soul... And lift the spirit, I hope...

Easy.

Hi diary, looking forward to hard working future.

Easy.

Hey Li£e

How’s today been man?

Your last two posts make a lot of sense especially the other way round! Because I’m sure that if you work hard in the future (job recovery ect) your confidence will shine again.

Keep posting.

Thank f. aid

There is a lot of false hopes for me...I want the easy way out...I have to be strong!

Easy.

Had to post just to move you off the devils number lol.

There never is an easy way out especially if you are a gambler, there may appear to be an easy way out but we know too well that if this route is taken its the hardest possible route avaliable.

All gambling is is a con, a con that we have been falling for for too long a time now.

Belive in yourself.

Nowthen Li£e,

Hows i going today man?

Struggaling to post on my own diary stuck in some sort of recovery limbo, no gambling but nothing positive to report. So thought i would see how your doing?

Keep up the fight.

Im ok... Tnx for asking...

just wondering about in the morning for the nxt three mornings im going on a SIA licence course ^^

Nothing better to do?

Easy.

Well..I still have not managed to beat my illness...I booked a sia licence course for 140 pounds last the night b4 last... Anyway, after I booked it I realised that I needed to pay £250 extra pounds...to get the licence...Secondly, the venue was in hounslow and it started at 8am...Ell by 5am it was thick with snw...Also, I realised tht the sia authority do an advanced disclosure of CRB...well my criminal record is very long...However, I have been out of trouble for 6years...And befor that 7.... Anyway..because i was up all night I becam worried....So, today I decided to GAMBLE....?? I was going to just try £100... However, this soon turned into $920 ....Well I must say that it looked as if I reallycould of won today...But guess what I never??? Hey thse live roulette casinos look real good...And I did think I was going to win big...Is it really random I ask myself...The odds felt better??? Maybbe Iam dissillusioned... I have not realised wht I have done yet....I lost my car, my job, my health and now nearly all my money.... Crazy, but true...

I think im going to let someone hold my cards for me for a few months...

I cant really trust myself..

easy.

Hey Easy,

I know I've been in that position before, and many people on here will have been there to. The waking up from a gambling trance thinking what the f**k have I done.

You know it's going to suck for the next few days at least. I found that doing the practical things is what got me through. Figure out exactly what I've got and exactly how to survive. Once you do that, then its time to rebuild.

I often feel like my little house of cards is just going to take one slip before it all falls over. The good thing about all our houses of cards is that we can start to build them again.

All the best mate, don't despair and keep plugging away.

Ryan

Thanks Ryan... It has cheered me up....

I just received an email from the casino and they said they closing my account: IF THEY DETECT ME PLAYING AGAIN I WILL NOT RECEIVE ANY MONEY THAT I WAGER!! AT ANY OF THERE CASINO'S... Sounds like good news to me!!

I will beat this...

Easy.

Hiya Easy,

You will beat this! But!...what about a blocker on the computer? Close the door completely? Big hugs.

Love Del xo

Yh tnx del... I am pleased you understand me...,and not beating me up about being serious about stopping...I REALLY AM...but unemployed lost my car and in debt....Suppose it could be worse...

Can u get free blocker?

Easy

Hi Easy,

K9 is free but get someone else to do password.

Hope it helps

Stay Strong

E xx

Now then easy

Start doing things that convince you that you are serious, start excluding, anything. If you believe then it's possible.

How much more can you take man?

Pick yourself up and start getting busy with recovery.

You deserve it.

I know tht my gambling stems from loss...loss of money unrelated to gambling, debts, emotional s**t that seems to force you into a position where it seem you have no choice...well today is DAY 2 and I WILL BEAT THIS...!!!! Thanks guys!!!!

Easy.