Starting again.

Easy--I know how hard this is for you as I have tried and failed so many times myself.

The good thing is you are not giving up on giving up.

Debt is an awful thing for us to bare but if you have credit card debt there may be a way out for you. Have a look at a company called card-lite on the tinternet. It may be able to help.

Today is a new day and that is how I now look at things--everyday is a new day and today I have not gambled.

I cannot win because I cannot stop

All the best

Stumper

Hiya Easy,

Congrats on day 2. These days will mount up again, I too know how hard this is for you, its getting back to the basics eh? Day counting, blocks in place, but also...feed yourself well, get a good sleep routine, put a structure to your day, to help counteract the chaos. Maybe letting go of any overly ambitious plans to make everything alright again ? (if your anything like me) The little steps will lead you there as you get stronger. I hope that makes sense. Be easy on yourself...hugs

Love Del x

Thanks....To all!! Stumper!!! Del girl, Elizabeth, Leedso, First aid and anyone else!!

Yes day 2-3 of recovery, I think I am going to do it this time...I CANNOT WIN BECAUSE I CANNOT STOP... I just want to put it behind me again...I prayed that if I won the other day I wouldnt gamble..You see I am in debt and I keep losing money...Not from gambling just from stupid mistakes I cant afford to do it no more and feel pushd into a corner at the moment..... I HOPE I HAVE LEARNT? I am scared to say I have beaten it so early on...But I want to try my best....It is really difficult because my mind changes... I need to focus and get back into the gym starting from tommorow!!!

Thanks for support guys.

Easy

P.s

I have been so emotionally destroyed..and made hell of a lot of bad choices. Take a deep breath... Start again...I cannot compare my gambling to others.. I dont want to think about gambling...But I have to!! ?? No logic...

Sounds good to me! By relapsing, you must now have pure hatred towards the gambling world. This will ensure that stronger barriers have been raised in your fight against those demons.

Unfortunately, there is no way that we cannot stop any thoughts of gambling. When it hits our face at every opportunity like it does during this present climate, it's impossible.

But what you could do is to link gambling with every negative word that you can think of under the sun.

Because that is the reality of what gambling IS.

Time is a great healer and in a few days' time, you will feel better. Stay strong and stay positive.

GT

Two months ago I came back from Asia...I had a chance to get a loan for 13k... However, I turned it down...It damaged my credit score...Since then I applied for many loans and messed it all up...I think I NEED TO STOP CHASING MONEY!!.... I got refused today and that is the final straw..they asked me for a gaurantor?!! haa what a joke... Two months ago all i did is sign the paper and return it!! Now they blockd me... Anyway, thats it no more ...It is not as if I was going to pay it back anyway, I was going to screw them for it... I want to go straight now.... I have had enough of all of this free money.... I have to stop feeling bitter about the 13 k and move on...Time for me to face reality!!!

By the way its day 3-4!!

Easy

easy.

i probably would have run away...to a foreign country and ran into more trouble...

At least I got my family thats all that matters now!!

By the way has any of yu guys got an awful sneezy cold....its disgusting!!

Not me mate, all the running that I am doing must be stopping me from getting a cold.

As for that 13k loan, do you really know that you would have got it for definite? I have had a few of those offers before but they would still have to be credit checked.

Anyway, in the long term, it's probably best that you don't get screwed up over another loan. Short term, yes it's great, but what about the long term?

GT

Yes I would have got it because I cancelled it ...I used experian...It was a co op loan and I hade been accepted because my credit score was above 967.... They told me I just scraped it...But me like the idiot I am rang them and asked for more...It was a consolidation loan.... The thing is if you ahve a high credit score with Experian they submit you to loans you will be accepted... I was employed for only a few weeks but becuase up until now I paid all my bills on time they just accpted me online...and then sent me a letter which I signed and sent back...It was an agreement form... So, I definitely had it...The joke part is a cancelled....not knowing that it goes on my file.... Anyway, I re applied and the same company turned me down and knocked 50 points off...The credit scoring sytem is a shambles...I KNO A GUY WHO GOT 250,000 whilst on the dole...he bought a house and ran a buisness,,,The buisness failed by the way...However, all he did is check his score...If it was around 980 then he appied for unsecured loans.... he got em all...He lied about his income because they dont bother checking (be careful because every application has to be the same ---i made this mistake) he said hes a car dealer earning 50k per year...they threw loans at him.

One thing is for sure....money DOES NOT MAKE YOU HAPPY.....LOL... but we all believe it does....because we are BLINDED BY GREED...

I FEEL SORRY FOR PEOPLE WITH LOTS OF MONEY...lol....Instead of feed the poor feed the rich.....Probably us losing all our money isnt such a bad thing after all...I sure does make you feel lighter...haha...

By the way no more gambling for me...it made me feel to good.

If i cannot get a job ..I surely willemigrate soon...I have had enough!!

Imagine I got a first class degree and cannot get a job...no wonder im depressed...Anyway, went training twice today with my stepson.... I put £100 in the bank and I said I felt like putting it in the bookies..then I shrugged it off like i never meant it...I think for a split second I did...I got to beat this...I had a thought that I will have moeny soon..

As for the loans..lol...Forget em...Waste of money...Either way..not worth the hassle.

Easy.

Ill get there...

Ok guys..Support would be nice..I wont lie to you I have not really been giving much lately...But im so down I just need a shoulder to cry on.. I will try to be more supportive...Over time once I feel like I've beaten this...Definitely feel at least 50% better.

Hi Easy

£100 in the bank sounds good to me,better than in the bookmakers bank where you cant make any withdrawals lol.

I can see you are feeling down m8.You need to try and get your old attitude back,after all you know how good it feels to have an easy life.All the best Jeff.

Morning Li£e,

Well done for fighting the urges over the last few days, I know how hard this is, how many blocks you got in place man?

Would having access to a 13k loan been a good idea? I don’t think so you’re a compulsive gambler, can you honestly tell us that you would not have gambled some of it? I personally couldn’t be trusted with access to £100 never mind 13k.

Have noticed frustration in your posts regarding getting a job, there are jobs out there its just what your prepared to do, when I left uni I got a minimum wage agency job with a fairly big company, after 1 year I got taken on by the company 1 year after that I applied for a job internally and got a promotion, the money is still not fantastic (20k) but its a job and good experience.

I also noticed your post on GTs gamble free in 2012 thread, we are not gamble free in 2012 so do not deserve to be on the list, we do however have our own personal date if we never gamble again that date will be of massive importance to us, a life changing date.

You will beat this li£e but only if you start believing in yourself.

Hiya Easy,

Don't be worrying about giving support out at the moment, get yourself up again first.....just take one day at a time with life in general and try not to overwhelm yourself. The exercise thing sounds the ticket..getting rid of the stress etc. As jeff has said you know how it feels to have an easier life..you will get there again. You sound like your moving in the right direction. Keep Strong!

Big hugs Love Del x