Starting again.

Hi, good for you! and well done in your recovery..

Dont forget....

I CANNOT WIN BECAUSE I CANNOT STOP.

Way to go on the 8 weeks mate! Every day without gambling is a day when the bookies are the losers and we are slightly more winners.

Best of luck for another 8 and many more!

Tnx leedso...hope you are recovering well too...and every1 else fighting this disease...every day I wake up im reminded that I am still a c.g..and it is a little depressing but hey not as half as depressing as the morning after a loss...also, as I progress the I feeling I get is an empty 1........Now that the bad feelings have subsided...do you know what I mean?..I dont have the adrenline their anymore and my brain is reminding me every morning..kind of like any addict...when they wake up they crave for a spliff..or ciggie..or drink...whateva...mine is not exactly winning money because I always lose..it must be the rush..and living without it seems difficult...although I will NOT let my guard down...because it is out in the open and Im determined to nail it this time...I HAVE FAITH IN EVERY SINGLE 1 OF YOU IN YOUR RECOVERY...and I wish you well.

TNX.

I just want to say anyone who reads my thread thank you for taking the time to read.....furthermore, I aint the person that these words interpret into your head...Im just a "nearly" normal guy who has ups and downs like most of us on here... the thing we have in common is GAMBLING...which we can all share with each other..but I just want to express myself a little bit more than that... and I feel that some people may not like it....which is fair enough.... but I think I may overdo it a bit sometimes....I sound like a slimeball now well MEBBE i am sometimes we all are? arent we...we have all admitted we are gamblers...so I guess we aint angels ..IN fact we are amongst the most cunning genuises on the planet who once tried to survive from instinct and were defeated... the very brave and wild people that we are!!...we are the best..and I really hope you get something from me?...because I certainly do from you...and I think I am so lucky to be able to get to know you.......

xxxcolourful friends.

£FAST LIFE

Hey bro,

I can't say that I wake up every day thinking about gambling, some days I can get on with whatever I had planned for that day, and not let my mind stray to it much at all. But it is always there in the background, the vacancy where there used to be gambling, the extra motivation to support a team when I'm watching sport on the box, the long hours on the slots or the VP late at night.

As you say, we're not angels and getting over the sins of the past isn't just a matter of regret when it's gambling, it's a whole bunch of work to pay back the money.

Whilst this place is great to help with the recovery, and reading other people's diaries is good to add perspective to how I deal with the whole problem, at the end of the day staying clear of the gambling is down to us as individuals. I don't think it's up to anybody on here to think you're a slimeball or not dude, we've all made similar mistakes and we all should look at ourselves before casting judgement on others.

What I'm trying to say is take what other people say with a pinch of salt, although it's very useful it's still faceless with usernames, which makes it much easier to say things without as many consequences.

Best of luck with it all mate, hope the ups outweigh the downs!

Ryan

Another day another saved dollar...

I am glad to read that most of you are recovering well.

can someone tell me...when temptation will finally go...I think it is the day you leave this world...phew...dificult?..no...

Well just spent about an hour on hold for them to tell me to ring another number..and then it happened again...shopping around is a testing time sometimes...at last !!!I have booked my travel insurance for family.....

All set hopefully!....

stay strong!

Hi, went to town with son today and had really weird urges even though I knew I coudnt gamble because I was with my son!...that is really strange, my heart was going for some reason...I dont understand that?

xxx£fast life

Hi Mate

Just read through your diary. Doing really well. Well done.

Think the urges can creep up at any time. Best I did was nearly 3 months last year, then BANG!

Got complacent I suppose. Not going to let that happen this time though. Need to have plans in place.

Don't know if you have, but I've put the Gamcare phone number in the mobile.

If I'm out and about and things get difficult, I'll be on the phone.

Just a thought for you.

Keep it up mate.

M

Hello mate,

Glad to read you're still keeping your money in your pocket and not handing it over to the gambling companies. Still on the straight and narrow here too.

You asked the question when will the temptation go away. I'm more worried about when it does. Hopefully I'll still be gamble free in a few years, and will have paid off the debts and the temptation will go, but if it does will I put my guard down? It's so quick and easy to deposit and play...if it sneaks up on me and I ruin myself all over again, could I pick myself up?

For now I'm happier knowing the temptation, and knowing I haven't given in today, and won't tomorrow either.

All the best mate,

Ryan

Tnx for the post...not only have I managed to stay away from machines I have also stopped drinking 2...which is temporary 'drinking' hahah...I will have a few when I go to Spain in june I guess?...who knows...

Fast life £ here...takin it slowly...I CANNOT WIN BCAUSE AAYY CANNOT STOP! (naff scottish impersonation)..lots of thoughts about how much it hurts when me make ourselves live like tramps....HOW?? and why!!

no gamblin today!

Hi diary bogged down with work ATM...keep posting I will catch up with yu guys soon!.

STAY STRONG!