Starting again

How uncanny.

Just looked at my last diary entry out of curiosity.

27th July last year.

I had just bought a wowcher for a spa day which I actually went to today.

What a coincidence! Must have been fate to log back in today.

So much has happened in that time

Day 1

Glad I logged in last night.

Feeling focussed.

Started a budget last night. Need to collect all information and write to creditors but I'm doing something which is positive. Have 22 debts to tackle. Not sure how much though yet. Bit scary to find out. But I will. Head out of the sand now. Pushing forward

Every gamble free day is a day that my debt doesn't grow. It may not shrink yet but it's going to go the right way again

good luck want2stop and thank you for your post. Hope your first day has been ok and that you are feeling strong. Take it bit by bit.

Thank you Annie. Today has been a good day.

Been at work. Not had opportunity or real inclination to gamble today. Just fleeting thoughts.

Been working on budget and finding out how much debt I owe

Day one done. I'm off to bed. Another early morning

Day 2

So my debt currently stands at 12246.42 over 23 creditors

This is nearly twice my basic salary!

Need to arrange plans with debts who haven't got them in place yet. Need to get up to date with rent and council tax first and foremost though.

Need to stay positive. Can't look back. Can't change the past. Move forward. Only my actions now can change. And being gamble free can only be a good thing.

Well done on getting to day 2 and getting your finances in a clear position. It will take time but if you can stay gamble free you will always be going in the right direction. All the best. X

Day 2 nearly done.

OH still gambling although each time it says its the last time

Kept busy reading and catching up on TV series.

Feeling positive about giving up gambling but the harsh reality has come crashing down on me. Had a headache last 2 days

Be glad when the rent is paid

Day 3

Feeling low and have a bad head

Still determined

Be kind to yourself. Take it one small step at a time. It can feel overwhelming looking too far ahead. Xx

Thanks for your kind words.

Its easier to be kind to others than myself and I don't feel like I deserve kindness. But what you say is true.

Happy to get through day 3.

Filled in step change budget. Feeling I'm taking positive steps towards a better life.

Hospital Wednesday which is also stressful and stress is a gambling trigger

Well done for filling in step change budget.
It's a positive step towards taking control and that usually helps you to feel better.
You know Wednesday could be a trigger. I hope it goes well for you. Do all you can to make it impossible to gamble. You can do this!
You deserve a better life.
All good wishes x

Thanks for the well wishes

Also have 3 hours on my own tomorrow which could be tempting.

Think I have self excluded all accounts by now.

And have lots to keep me busy. But I know this would normally be a time I would gamble

So trying to prepare myself

Put a few things on Facebook to sell. Gonna have a clear out and try and make some money.

Really want to get out of rent arrears. Know I will feel more positive once I can stop stressing about the rent.

Trying to actively do things to impact my life positively 🙂

Day 4

Been trying to arrange payment plans with debts this morning.

Got plans already with some

Be feeling better once I have a plan and the debt starts going down