Starting again

Stayed gamble free. Trying to look forward to when I will be financially more secure. Knowing staying gf is only going to help my standard of living eventually

Been following your diary and the pervious progess you made.

Well done for getting through today. You've done so well in the past, theres no reason you cant do that again and some. Its inspiring to see you take control of an addiction even when your partner is continuing. It shows great strength and personal awareness and i wish you all the best.

Will keep checking in even if i don't post.

Sounds like you're doing really well, almost a month done!

Day 22

Thanks both. OH agreed to download gamban so that's on the PC. Bought it for his phone too but can't seem to activate it. Need to have a look. He said he knows he will keep gambling unless we do something like this. Feeling hopeful

Day 23

Stayed gamble free but turned to food for comfort. I am on slimming world and been off plan for last 4 days. Can't stop eating. Stressed and getting no sleep so using food to cope

Music therapy WTS I suggest, easier said than done but sit tightly with the emotions that’s causing the stress, it will pass and your doing well.

Day 24

I know it will pass its staying strong when the urges are there. Am i being dense what is music therapy?

Hai WTS,

Music therapy = turn the radio on, I find it something that can take your mind of things. You’ve heard it before but be nice to yourself especially in down times and even if it seems at a snail pace keep forging forward.

Day 25

Thought it might be lol yeah music can lift my mood. Doing anything distracting helps. Tbh had a lot more going on so missing the gambling is not as bad as usual.

Stressing about finances. Parenting. Relationship. Weight and health. Being low. Just general day to day lol

Appointment with the surgeon next Tuesday. Will take it from there.

Day 26

Quietly confident I will be OK especially as I have gamban in place too. OH gets paid tomorrow so really need to try and get the gamban sorted on his phone or he will gamble. He is main earner so our standard of living really does depend on his actions. I have no spare money at the moment will be a few months gf before I get on top of it and finally have a bit of spare money

Day 27

Quite stressed with finances and even though I am trying to deal with mine the OH is struggling especially as he hasn't stopped gambling. He has got nearly £2000 in payday loans. He hasn't sent me my money yet today so I am a bit miffed. Hoping he is sensible rather than gamble the little money he has got.

When I restarted 4 weeks ago my debt was £12246.42

It now stands at ВЈ11704.05 which means I have reduced it by £542.37 in a month. If I was gambling it would have been closer to 13 grand by now. Its been a struggle. But its great to see a lower number now

Well done on 27 days gamble free. Stressing about finances is normal for everyone not just for us who have put ourselves in this position because of gambling, many people overspend so don't be too hard on yourself. I can only dream of clearly £542.37 a month towards my debt so be proud of yourself and like you said, if you were still gambling, it the debt would have gone up.

Keep it up fella

Wilsy

So relieved finally cleared rent arrears. Literally lived on nothing all month but that doesn't make too much of a change to when I was gambling.

Will be so much happier when I dont need to struggle or be too careful with food shop or for basics

Allowing myself ВЈ14 a week to live on. £2 a day. Really going to be hard as I usually buy milk every day for my daughter

I just want debt letters to stop and be able to pay minimum on bills and arrangements.

Everyone agreed arrangements except littlewoods who are being a nightmare. I have divulged with them that I have a brain tumor which has reduced income and yet they still persist! A bit inhuman really

Day 30

Still gf

Day 31

A whole month gamble free. Starting to feel in more control. OH is really depressed and I know gambling heavily contributes. Had a problem downloading gamban to his phone so he still managed to gamble. Hospital tomorrow. Nervous to say the least.