Starting again

Well done on remaining so strong for a month

Wilsy

Day 32

Strange. Have had several urges today. Not sure what's triggered them. Back up is that gamban installed so I can't login to any sites not that I have tried.

Good news the cyst on my brain is safe to leave so no surgery required. Just need to find a way to alleviate the symptoms. Waiting to be referred back to neurologist now

good news on the diagnosis, well done for the gf days and clearing the rent arrears

I've not read your whole diary as yet but have you heard/seen a website called debt camel? - sounds like you might want to have a look, potentially with a view to making complaints about some of the borrowing you have made?....

Day 33

Thanks will have a look at the site.

20 days until I get paid again and I won't have enough wages to cover the outgoings again. Stressing me out a bit. Especially as we are due to go on holiday the week after for 4 days. Stressing about whether I can afford to go. Don't want to let my daughter down

Day 34

Great advice. Will really be looking at that website. Really inspired now to stay gf. Have put in my first complaint already. It would be amazing to chip away at some of the debt by removing the interest. I think it is easier to stay gf if you can see a light at the end. Or to see an end of the debt rather than forever. We will see. I never want to gamvke again. Mt life is worth so much more. I don't want the love fe I had. I deserve better. The first 31 years of my life may not have been the best. But now the best is yet to come. I have awakened!

Was feeling do positive last night. Now feeling fed up. Been trying to make a payment arrangement with littlewoods since end of december. And they have put on 4 charges so far. Have emailed. Facebooked and live chatted several times. They are terrible! Really getting me down

Day 35

5 weeks gf. Feeling good about my own journey although have had a few tempting thoughts. Gamban won't work on OH phone and he has gambled away his wages again. Need to look for another blocking software or he will never stop. Puts a strain on relationship. He's depressed. Makes me stressed. Crappy 🙁

Anyone know any blocking software compatable with android (honor 6). Gamban doesn't work. Thanks.

Morning WTS,

Possibly ask that question on ‘ Overcoming ‘ section, alternatively trade OH phone into a brick type. Your doing well but unneeded pressure, hence keep looking out for yourself.

Day 37

Yes good idea. I will post it there. Been thinking about changing his phone but it has to be up to him too. I know need to focus on me and my recovery. Which I am doing first

Day 38

Still gf. On a mission to get some interest refunds from payday loans. If any do give refunds it will go towards clearing the debt I have now

Day 40

Wow the big 4-0! Feeling good. Not having many temptations or thoughts of gambling. My compulsion now is to sort out my debt and finances. Its going to be a long road but feeling positive this will be the last time I need to take it

Well done, keep busy and keep reminding yourself how much better you feel without gambling

Day 41

Feeling feel stressed and quite low. Would normally turn to gambling as an escape. I won't gamble as I have blocks in place but it will be hard to resist. Just need to struggle through until finances are manageable

Day 42

6 weeks gf. OH Still gambling! Fed up at looking at numbers and bills. Think I dont have enough income again this month for bills going out. Going to be a juggle of who to pay when. Trying to prioritise the best I can.