Today is day 128, which for some of us is a round number, so maybe a good day to start a recovery diary.
Nothing dramatic to report; no scary temptations lately; looking forward to a holiday free of the bad moods that come from gambling all night and waking up with less money than I had the day before.
People who have chatted with me here already know that my handle 'dogfan' is not about dog racing, but just about the fact that I like dogs. Loyal, supportive, friendly, hearth-and-home companion dogs. The ones that are happy that they seem to get more and longer walks during the last 128 days or so.
When I have a vacation day, and the weather is crisp, bright, and sunny; and I enjoy walking the dog through the woods, and the breakfast toast-and-coffee is particularly delicious for not having been eaten in a hurry,
then
the knowledge that I will not throw away this rich feeling of bien-etre by gambling myself into a foul mood
is delightful.
Guard up of course.
Hmmm all this buildup around a gamble-free xmas and I forgot about DayAfterXmas, or as I like to call it, National Letdown Depression Day.
Felt pretty crummy today but guard up. It's okay to feel crummy without that being an excuse to make yourself feel worse by gambling.
And so begins a new year. Dinner and a movie was definitely a better entertainment deal than... you know.
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