The begining of the end

We are all pretty much the same on here x

Yes they are just numbers for now, and from today they are going to improve slowly day by day

Remember you can't solve all life's problems in one go, every time you consider them all in one go it will be overwhelming and gambling thrives on this feeling.

You can however address one problem or even part of a problem each day, depends how much energy you have on that given day.

Lastly (most importantly) - you haven't gambled today... That in itself is a victory. If you don't check it in the end still go to bed feeling like a champion and a winner.

Every day you don't gamble from here on in is an AMAZING achievement. Far outweighs going on the spinners and winning a load of dough then giving it back again. Waste of time and life.

Take care

I had a text from bank saying theres 340 due out tomorrow and not enough funds to cover it

I think I will withdraw the 160 now and whoever wants money can wait til I get paid on fri, we need that money for food

I know I would have gambled it all had I still be gambling and I got throu sat night so I feel better about myself a bit

Cant  wait til I have paid off all my debts I will be so happy to be debt free 

Can you call the bank and extend your overdraft for the mo? Just until you're back on your feet?

No unfortunately that bank I was with since I was 16 kicked me out last year and I missed all the payments on the 15k I owed them, the only bank av out I could get was a basic one and they wont let me have an overdraft 

My credit rating it basically 0, I might see if I have some stuff I can sell to get throu the week but I think tbf we can more than manage on 160 quid, whoever I owe the money too can wait 

Feel so depressed today and dont know why, I know it would be worse if I had been gambling though

Gonna spend way with the kids I only get sundays off and that goes quick, not got any money to do anything with them but we gonna do some gardening and clean the shed out hopefully we will find some old toys they forgotten about

Feel bad about all the money I have wasted gambling that could have gone on things for them 

How are you doing today?

I am okay thanks so much for asking signalman

I have been trying to keep busy at at work to take my mind off things and to hopefully recoup some money 

Finding it hard to sleep in this hot weather laying in bed is when I used to gamble so I have downloaded some games to play instead which has helped me a lot

Still miss gambling but I dont miss the crazy ups and downs and I deff dont miss the hollow sickness of dread when I lose which I always do!

Hope you are well

Got paid yesterday 

85 percent went on Bill's but had 100 quid left so had a couple of drinks and brought kids chippy 

Its 100 quid I wouldn't have had if had been gambled, I still got massive debts to pay off but if I can afford a pint and chips for kids at wnd on the week I'm better off than a lot of ppl in the world so happy days 

God I hate being poor!! If I think of what I spent over the years gambling! And now I got nothing it sucks! I just want money to eat something nice ame not have ppl hassling for money is that too much to ask 

Evee it has drove me nuts time after time for several years and I am sure we all understand how it feels.

The number of times I have had to scrimp & scrape and watch the pennies all because I gambled away the money.

Little things can become a luxury like just being able to buy an everyday item without worrying if there is sufficient left to pay the bills.

And than the craziest thing of all is that we go through it all again once we get paid. Absolute madness.

Take good care of yourself because nobody else will.

Stephen 

thanks Stephen u summed it up exactly

I feel so bad lately thinking of what was and what is, what could have been and what should have been

I regret so much and can see no way forward 

Thansk for the support 

Love evee

Posted by: Evee1122

I just want money to eat something nice ame not have ppl hassling for money is that too much to ask 

You know what - it can and will happen eventually, all you got to do is remain gamble free, that's it. The rest will fall into place eventually.

It won't happen overnight, there's no instant wins anymore, you left that world behind remember? 

Our brain are scrambled from gambling, we think that big rewards can come and change everything like they did when we gambled and we pine for them sometimes, sadly these 'game changers' are a think of the past now, you are changing your game slowly... You are doing all the right things so just try not be too hard on yourself. 

This will take time. Keep that in mind. You're going great guns, you've just got to accept that this is going to take some time to get where you want it to be. 

Keep going ?✊

Hi Evee,

How have you been recently?

Hope calm is returning and steady waters gives you some breathing space.

You know, as wiser person than me told me once " should of, could of, if this and not that" should be banned from English dictionary as it gives person quite negative feelings. It is what it is. We cannot change the past. If it is - it was meant to be. Now we're more educated and guided to the right direction, we can start making changes  towards healthier and positive future.

Today matters the most and we can make it a wonderful experience to live...Present is life in our hands..no wonder it's called a gift!

Take care and keep us posted about your progress if you're able & want to.

S&B xx