The bingo was really great and I had a lot of fun, not really expecting to win and just had a great laugh.
I see what your saying Stephen and though the bingo itself was great I felt the painful urge to just have a flutter on the slots within the facility. I would usually spend ВЈ50+ on these in a single visit and my addiction is in no way going away as I did end up giving into this and spent £30 on the machines which I now regret as there was no need to do so.
I won't give up though and will learn from this that I'm not ready to face that level of temptation so early.
I will reset the count but as I said I won't give in.
Tomorrow is day 1.
Day 1 again. Disappointed to slip back but beginning again and will continue with complete honesty to myself about my progress or slipups.
Today I will not gamble.
Spinningout
it shows great character to be honest on this forum with fellow sufferers and you have got straight back into the saddle and you will continue to keep trying. A slip isn't the end of the world, no damage was done, you've reset the 'days' counter and you will for today not gamble.
Well done mate, pat yourself on the back!
Wilsy
Successful day so far with no gambling at the back of my mind but only because I find it difficult to stop focussing on the dire financial state I have put myself in by doing this and the reality of just how long this will take to fix.
I know the only way to change this is not to gamble and no magic win will fix it all. This is a great thing to realise.
Today I will not gamble.
Sat down with my mother and father (separately as they are divorced) and came clean about the whole thing and explained the help I had seeked on here and of my debts.
The reaction I got was nothing short of amazing. Not one insult or yell or judgement. They simply said they will sit me down each week and monitor my bank accounts to help me stick and it.
As if this wasn't enough support they have offered to take my debt into one loan with great interest rates in there name so I can make a affordable payment each month while still having a life.
Amazing. Incredible people and I will not let them down!
Been got the pub today to finish off day 1 gamble free. On my normal visit in would sit most of the night spending £30+ on the fruit machines. Tonight I spent nothing on them and had a great night with my partner.
Day 1 complete and better for it.
Day 3 of no gambling.
I will not gamble.
Day 5 and the urge to gamble is getting less strong each day.
Today I will not gamble.
Hope your having a good week Spinningout.
Well done on telling your parents about your gambling issues. Supportive family and friends can be helpful to our recovery.
I really hope you can beat this. Your still a young man and you have a life to enjoy. It will take time to get your finances in order but you can do it. Many people cannot come to terms with the monies they have lost and go on to lose even more by chasing their losses. It is time to move forward and leave the past behind.
Been a while and lost my way abit on recovery. I have arranged to begin counselling soon which I hope can help. My life seems to be completely overwhelming me at the moment and gambling is usually my go to to distract myself from this but although I have gambling in the past few days I don't feel the pull for this reason.
Welcome back Spinningout. I admire your honesty and openness. You appreciate that you are a compulsive gambler and are aware of the dangers associated with this addiction.
Yes there has been setbacks but you have shown resilience, remorse and the will to fight on. You will be faced with all sorts of challenges throughout your life but please appreciate that this will be the mother of all the battles. You will be severely tested but if you can come out of the other side in one piece, you will be a better man for it.
You have courage, understanding and the unwavering support of your loved ones.
Now is the time to draw a line under this sad chapter in your life.
With love in your heart, a belly full of hope and a smile on your face you can make a fresh start.
Wishing you well...stephen
It has not been a few weeks. I have found myself gambling again large sums of money funded by anything and everything including payday loans.
I feel overwhelmed and I have no idea how else to deal with this. I am losing faith in myself and yet I feel more sad with each spin and the debt climbs.
I have arranged to start councillor on the 8th and hope this works by helping me sort the issues in my head.
Losing the battle and hope with it. Today has not been a good day.
That's great, counseling in just 2 days from now. I hope that the counselor is a good one for you and helps you sort through the head issues ... as you said. I get that one. I don't have a counselor, sometimes I find a pod cast or a book. I also have phone meetings that I go to sometimes. I hear ya on feeling like it's a losing battle and loosing hope along the way. Maybe it's a battle we can't be in. I have to remove myself from it and be at peace with what life I have in this moment. Details of life can be so hard. Yes, thanks for comeing back and posting and good luck with the talk therapy. take care. tara2
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