the end of the road, a new start on the way

I got the job, im a very happy man tonight!!

This time gambling will not destroy my life, this is my second chance and im not blowing it..... I will fit into a society which maybe i dont belong, i am going to be the very best dad for my sons.............Love my boys!

Thankyou all for all your support and kindness, i have had some realy dark, hard, heartbreaking times and your support has helped me through..........Im a dippy guy who loves his sons, more than words could ever explain, but i am winning my battle, so if i can, certainly anyone can!

My diary is my personal reminder of the misery gambling has caused me and my sons...I only blame one person for my gambling addiction and that is myself............Be true and honest to yourself and your recovery will truly begin...

Have good weekend all and take care.....ands

Hey buddy. Got the job, come on so far, well done!

Hi ands,

Great stuff on the job.. congratulations! Onwards and upwards... S.A 🙂

Hi ands,

Congratulations... 150 days under your belt, feels good eh 😉 You have sooo earnt that feeling... Add to that employment! Great news Andrew.

The last 150 days have been about you fighting for survival. For your boys & yourself.

You should be proud of your progress and Im sure your boys are very proud of their Dad for 'really' being there for them now and by laying down strong and stable foundations for you all to grow and develop both individually & as a family with a great future ahead.

Wishing you happiness as you enter the next chapter of your life and recovery.

Keep doing what you do

Jackie

Hi Ands,

Well done on getting the job, awesome news! I am chuffed for you. Well done.

Jim

"Keep Calm and Carry On'"

Another mile stone. 151 days!!!!!!! Can`t believe how you have grown my friend. Chit, I don`t even worry so much about ya:).

Day 151, 152 and 153, i have not gambled and i will not gamble tomorrow.

I start my new job next monday at 9.30am and i am so looking forward to it!

thankyou as always for your posts, take care all... ands

it is big motivation for newbies like me to see you crossing 150 mark...... i am on day three and hopefully this summer i will also be on 150.

wish you all the courage and motivation to keep going and guiding others on the way to recovery-------to freedom.

Andy. Sometimes people ask me why do I hang out here when I am now not involved in gambling. Getting a post on my diary as you have just done is the reward I get. Thank you so much. It brings happiness to me to see you are out of those dark days. Your one strong fellr, although knowing you, you won`t admit, lol!

Hi ya Ands,

Just wanted to thank you for your post on my diary.... hope you enjoyed the day.. S.A 🙂

hi ands

thanks for being the first visitor on my diary... giving me the hope that i will not be alone here.

its 4 days. i checked the stocks today and see everything flying and i was calculating that i had made a big profit then after going through the forum.......i realized again that i was in profit so many times in the past but would have never come out of it with a profit and closed the sites.

somehow i am still not able to resist the temptation of checking the sites for spreadbetting. though with blockades in place, could not do any further harm

Hi Ands,

great news on the job mate, really am chuffed for you, just go's to show life can be good to us, catch up a little more soon mate.

green x

Day 154 and 155, i have not gambled and i will not be gambling tomorrow...thank you for your posts!

Well monday nearly here and im feeling kinda good, had a cheque from tax credits last week, backdated money, cleared today!! Never gambled, well chuffed with myself, brought my beautiful sons pressies for christmas, my eldest a nintendo wii and some games, my youngest a bike and a huge lego garage........ ~That felt good, last christmas i stole toys from my local toy store which i got caught and charged with shoplifting, fined and an appearance in court! Realy not proud of that, but hey time to move on, no more dwelling on things in the past.........focus on the future.

This christmas is going to be sooooooooo different, no stealing, no sh*tty presents for my sons and we gonna have some good food, and maybe a bottle of jd lol! for me that is...

My 1 and only slip is now over 12 weeks ago, urges come and go, sometimes they literally still make me feel sick!!

Is crazy tho, how sh*tty fruit machines can cause so much damage and heartache, and yet i used to be so addicted its unreal....mentally disturbed or just nuts, i constantly ask myself how i have made such a f*****g mess of my life! But hey, the clocks ticking and life is for living, so i will be seeing the new year in with my sons and a smile on my face......

2010 is the year that ands is gamble free, head held high and a smile on my face...My sons by my side and i say f*** off to gambling......

My diary is my reminder that i almost lost my sons, rock bottom, sleepness nights, loss of weight, depression and pure emotional turmoil.. DUE TO MY BEHAVIOUR, but i have turned my life around and when i say its been f*****g hard that is an understatement, i have worked my recovery to its title!

take care all, ands-ex cg!!

Ummmm, looking for a smiley that gives a big thumbs up. Well done mate!!!!

well done ands and wishing you all the best for 2010. i will also try to emaluate you and may be with all the support available here, i will be out of all this mess.

thanks for still writing here regularly to give motivation to others.

i am reaching to the end of my first gambling free week.