the end of the road, a new start on the way

What a great post. Well done to you.

Brian

Hello Andy,

Fantastic post 🙂 Keep that self esteem growing. You have worked so hard on yourself during these past 3 years, Im so proud of you Ands & I know your boys must feel the same. Keep reaching for your goals, you never know where they may take you.

All the best Jackie

Hey Ands!

Thanks for your post mate, always good to hear from you.

Reading you last entry perked me up a bit. Good to read you're doing so well. Something for others (me!) to aspire to.

A credit to yourself and your boys, never let anyone else tell you differently.

Thanks again mate.

M

HI Ands,

Just occurred to me that one day, if you wanted, this diary could show your family the real you. Noone who has followed your journey on here, could ever think you were a bad person.

Am really inspired by you ands! your strength is massive, wish I had a tenth of it.

Take care,

f x

Great to hear from you again, mate.

Who cares what some people think of you. What really matters is what YOU and your boys feel about YOU. The most important thing is you have managed to make major, major strides in your life since being in the gambling hell-hole.

And for this alone, you and your boys should be incredibly proud of YOU.

NT

Thanks for your posts, always nice to read and appreciated.

Still gamble free and well on my way to hit my target next week, very happy about that. Being realistic i know im going to be gamble free now, well into next year. Christmas approaching and saving for eurodisney hoping to spend new year there with my boys.

In general id say my life is kinda good nowadays, have the odd urge and get down now and again.....but as a dad and a human being im so different now.

Just wished i quit gambling and all that comes with it years ago! but hey, doing it now.

New target feb 2013.

ands

You're doing it now and that's all that matters.

Forget about the past, the future is yours for the taking. Especially with that exciting trip coming up for you and the boys!

NT

Been a while since posting, day of work waiting for engineer to fix my boiler.

Now i am 22 months just over, gamble free, this is the longest i have gone without gambling for quite some years . Well chuffed with myself, looking forward to christmas and without gambling it will be a good one!

Booked euro disney for easter and having christmas at home with just my boys. Be nice and looking forward to a couple weeks of work.

Anyways life without gambling is good..........i plod on to the 2yrs gamble free ntarget, with a smile on my face and my head held high!!!!!

As far as my family goes, this is a dead end..i now can handle this, sad but i have exhausted all avenues to try and make amends for nearly 2 years. They hate me, they dont want any contact with my sons, there LOSS, not mine.

Im going keep my diary going for quite some time yet.

To my sons, love you both with all my heart!

Hi ands iv just read the last 8 pages of your diary and i hope to read more of your diary in the coming days and weeks im not a big reader but i really think your diary is worth reading you have done brillantly 22 months is amazing you should be a proud man and long may it continue a day at a time

Thanks footprints

Christmas only 3 days away and a new year too look forward to. Final post of the year and i am looking forward to another year without the heartache of gambling.

Boys have some great pressies saved for 5 months got my eldest psvita with some cool games and my youngest nintendo3dsi xl, got me turkey and some nice food, also got a little weed my pressie to myself lol!!

Anyways i have a lot to be grateful for and i shall not let my sons down nor myself.

A life without gambling is so much better on so many levels, i work hard, i a good father now and im a far better person.

This site and all the support has been a godsend for me and i will not forget that FACT!

L i hope whoever reads this has a great christmas and a very happy gamble free year! A huge thankyou to those who have followed my recovery/diary!!!!!!!!!!!!

ands the little fellah from se london

Great to see you going from strength to strength mate!

Your strength is a credit to you, as you have had some very dark times.

All the best xx

Hey, nice one mate, your doing great. keep up the great work.

Merry exmas to you and your boys... S.A 🙂

Hey Ands.

Thanks for the shout out on my diary. Good to hear from you! Everything is rosey here, no gambling and Xmas was great. Hope all is good at your end. Happy new year!

Cheers. Jim

Thanks for the posts.

First post on my diary of the new year, in 5 wks time i will be 2 years gamble free, had a really good christmas and looking forward to what life has to throw at me in the coming months.

I hit the big 40 this year and have spent more than half my life gambling, but that chapter of my life is getting further and further behind me. Time really is a good healer and all the self hatred i used to have is fading.

My youngest starts secondary school this year and my eldest will be a teenager, i am getting old!

The rewards for not gambling are making my sons life soo much better and i believe i am still growing as a person and as a parent. So in june of this year i would have been on this forum for 4 years and in that time, i to date remain at 2 slip ups (last one feb2011.

I am also approaching 1000 posts on my diary, thats commitment.

Anyways thats me done for a month or so, wishing everyone a happy gamble free new year. If you slip up dont beat yourself up, start again and get those barriers in place. Focus on life, family and the things in life that really do matter. It is never too late to turn your life around, thats if you really want too.

Middle finger up to gambling, thumb up to life and happiness.

That really is a lovely post ands... I could almost eat it 😉

You have come so far mate.. a true inspiration! Onwards to even better times. Warm regards... S.A 🙂