The first 24hrs are nearly done.

Hi Gina

Well done the first 24hrs without gambling is a big success well done.

You say you feel hallow would that be emotional traum and pain.

Yes from second by second to just one day at a time.

I needed to slow downa nd take very steady baby steps.

Bit like the very firsdt day taking on mountain climbing.

The rope of safety mountain climbing, the rope of honesty faith and being fearless.

Yes to regain you life back & learn how to deal with emotional triggers o a daily basis.

To exchange all unhealthy habits in to healthy habits .

Without gambling I am no longer hurting myself any more.

Yes recovery is worth it, yet more importanty you are worth much more.

Love and peace to every one 

Dave L

AKA Dave Of Beckenham UK

Hi Gina, i am in the same boat as you, also on my first day. Keep strong and remember why you are doing it. hopefully we can support each other on this journey to a healthier and happier life.

you're doing amazing

Andy.

Good morning guys, 

Thankyou both so much on your kind & encouraging words, they mean a lot!

As I'm entering the next 24hrs i feel so very deflated...like I have no energy etc..I know its the low after the high & I've been here many times before! This time though I want it to be the last time of feeling like this caused by those awful slot machines. I have to focus on other things to keep my mind busy but it's finding the end to do so...WE WILL ALL BEAT THIS just one second,one hour or one day at a time. 

Lots of love x

Hey Gina, Sorry for the late check in today! hope you have had a good day and that you are resisting the temptations. Keep strong and remember the reasons you're doing it for. 

All the best

Andy

@ags 

Hello Andy, 

I'm on day three now & this is by far the worst.

I'm feeling emotionally drained & just rubbish! The high of gambling has got me in the grips of the low now...I k ew it was going to come but boy do I feel s**t. I know I can do this but I just feel drained today & it feels like there is no way out. The guilt of wasting all the money I did has also finally hit. I'm in debt & can't see an end to this awful addition in all honesty. I just wish I had never started the journey into gambling because knowing the destruction I've caused along the way really isn't worth it ? ? 

Hello Andy,

Being on day three is a healthy start to recovery.

You are feeling emotionally drained & just rubbish!

Is that being in pain and filled with fears.

Sticking with your recovery will help you heal pains and reduce your fears.

Do you understand what your last emotional trigger was.

The high of gambling I now understand was adrenaline based.

You feel like s**t, well compast is good for some thing..

It is easy to forgot how we felt the very first day walking in to the recovery program,lost inadequate insecure and fears restricted me so much.

Yet once we move on to therapies we get to know our self better.

Once we reduce our fears life can be so exciting and new to us all.

The guilt helps us understand what we did and said were unhealthy.

Sadly I am not able to get back the unhealthy times and yet we can forgive our self for being unhealthy in time.

The gambling addictions and obsessions are only the symptoms we are emotionall vulnerable.

Once we heal our hurt inner child we no longer want to escsape in fear again.

Sadly the self destruction is very unhealthy.

Love and peace to every one

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham UK

Hi mum of three,

Welcome to the forum and well done for tackling  this addiction  head on. Early days are difficult  but don't  forget that they continue  to improve and sadness  and self beating  lessens in time.

What you do today and now matter the most. Making  that right choice  of not wasting  the money, hurting  yourself emotionally. 

We simply cannot win cause we can't stop. I tried to recoup losses by playing  more and guess what? Always the same outcome...just worse off. So clearly this does not work.

What does work is patience and staying  clean day in day out. Forgiving yourself, surrounding  yourself with positive activities  and support. I assume by your user name that you have children.  I suppose the time spent with them now is completely  different  world huh...being present is a present itself ?

Be kind to you, forgive  yourself and start building beautiful future ahead. It is possible and you are definitely  worth it.

You can look at the past and mistakes, but pls don't  stare, it's not gonna change and nothing you can do about it. Just learn from the past and make better choices ahead. You're  doing it!

S&B