The promise - part 2

i just want your extra time and your....... kisssssss

absolutely class tune

LOL ! Funny how everyone comes out to play when you mention fish n chips , I was really trying not to tell Deano what I did but his powers of deduction , Well , its like playing " Guess who " I'm not safe anywhere now ! LOL and yes I've heard em called Dabs , slaps , scollops and yorkshire fishcakes , when you have two with a slice of fish in the middle ?

Yeah scollops is what my mum calls them... two was a piece of fish inbetween! That should be on the menu... I need to eat one of them now!

Sorry buddy , I'm closed and even if I wasn't I'd struggle to deliver em through Cyberspace , LOL ! It's funny though how different parts of the cointry call them by different names , I serve a lot of guys from the local Naval base , so get to hear most name's and my mum was born in Sheffield and my Dad Huddersfield , so even though I was born here I had no chance really !

Hiya Buddy , thanks for the encouragement LOL ! , I knew it was at the time of night you'd be about and saw you nodding off so thought I'd give you a jolt ! Glad your letting thing's go over your head Bud but anytime you feel like jumping in I'd appreciate the help ! LOL at least your still talking to me eh !

Stay well fella !

Cheers change good to see you floating back around the place good to see you getting past the 2 months danger point keep it up bud keep your guard up don't get complacent an this could be the time everything clicks into place.

And in Oldham it's a chip muffin, I know it's only in oldham but you can't beat a good oven bottom muffin.

Hi Change
re yr post #133- what you describe re yr child sounds like the complete opposite of gambling.

Yes there's risk but your making highly rational decisions based on what will bring the best outcome. Based on experience, expert views etc. Bottom line tho yr motivated by love. This brings with it, kindness, nurture, compassion. You take some decisions which might be difficult short term but you know it's a long term benefit.

Think there's a clear analogy with how we should treat ourselves especially in recovery.

Sounds like you doing a great job of being a loving father. Big respect.

Louis

Hi Louis - thanks for your post. The decision is based on many things... the amount in his stomach when you start, the reaction to previous feeds that day, his movements, any slight coughs or twitches or uncomfortable reaction... but there's also the trade off to have to get as much into him as possible to get those calories up and the weight increasing. My son is on the 0.4% percentile on a growth chart. That is incredibly small. But if you push that little bit too much he'll vomit and you'll be in a worse place than you started and my wife may start crying and the next day I'll be receving texts and calls with worry. It's a massive decision every time I start that feed and it's pressure like nothing else. I love my son so much. I can't do it justice in words. I have this immense sense of respect that I honestly don't think I feel towards anyone else and never will do. I've seen him stop breathing, I've seen his heart rate drop to below 30 beats a minute over 100 times, I've seen him motionless and struggle, I've seen him get off a ventilator post-op within 12 hours when no doctor said he could, I've seen his blood sugars drop to a place where a seizure could occur and him had to have an intraveous line put into his scalp... but he has never ever given up. He can't speak but I know what he's thinking and he loves life. He's an amazing individual. I just fear that I could never have the same level of admiration for someone as I do towards him. Sure I could love a second child as much as him but I'd never forget how amazing he is and that scares me and my wife. It's the story of Hollywood and some readers may think I'm over-egging the pudding but I can assure I'm not... he's a 1 in a million individual and the stats will tell you that. I get lost for words but thanks for your post Louis. I've got some stories to tell the grandkids!

2nd that Change big respect to you and yours.

Suzanne xxx

Hey change...don't think we've really spoke before ..just had a quick flick on your diary.....
Well done on getting to this many days....my grandson was born at 26 weeks...1llb.....all the dramas and scares that go with a premmie baby...flown between hospitals etc...now 4 years later...all good....but the stress it put his mummy and daddy under was heartbreaking to be part of....so massive respect to you....and I hope your little one is too g ok xx

Hey change...don't think we've really spoke before ..just had a quick flick on your diary.....
Well done on getting to this many days....my grandson was born at 26 weeks...1llb.....all the dramas and scares that go with a premmie baby...flown between hospitals etc...now 4 years later...all good....but the stress it put his mummy and daddy under was heartbreaking to be part of....so massive respect to you....and I hope your little one is too g ok xx

Cheers for the kind words, it certainly something I can so about you.

Something seems to have changed with you I don't know how many times you got going tick off the days than Boom back down to zero again.

This time you have got through that tricky 30-50 day mark and are going from strength to strength.

Keep it up bud but at th same time don't get complacent and keep them guards high. We're all only 1 bet away from disaster.

Stay safe bud and say hi to that little fighter of yours.

KTF

Well done on the big 100 Change, massive congratulations!

Take a look back at the post you made just hours after your loss 100 days ago. The feelings you felt. That inevitable 8. Then appreciate where you are now.

I'm very proud of you, it's inspirational, the only way is up! Keep climbing!

-Ryan

Well done on reaching 100 days change - fantastic achievement!!!

Well done on reaching 100 days.

Best wishes