Thanks Michael and Ryan. It's another new journey for me a year on from when I first joined the site. I need to concentrate on improving my self worth then maybe I won't descend into gambling madness.
No cigs or vaping this morning which is the strangest part right now. Breaking a daily habit leaves you feeling strange and I've been grabbing for a vaping pen that isn't there or checking for a non existent lighter. The morning is just habit... wake up drive to station... have a smoke on way... have a smoke when waiting for train... have a smoke when get to destination etc. I suppose gambling was once in my daily routine... wake up check scores and check odds... play bets... check scores and then repeat throughout the day. At least I'm not in that routine any more!
Morning change,
Don't forget to be kind to you on this change of journey,
Sending you strong and positive thoughts for the day ahead.
Suzanne xxx
Well I made it into the office without any smoking or gambling related urges. Just need to make it through the day now.
A eureka moment indeed. Self love & repairing ones relationship with yourself is crucial . It is what recovery means. Just go easy on crucifying yourself with cutting everything out. Tackle one problem at a time. Cant eat an elephant in one mouthful Change, small bites will do the job better. Take it easy, recovery shouldn't feel like a hair shirt or a punishment. It is to be enjoyed not endured. Put your wellbeing first & everyone around you will benefit as a result.
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Hi Change
Sounds like a very sensible idea - taking care of the 'outside' you as a part of your overall self-worth.
I think I stopped smoking around the same time I stopped gambling, around 3 years ago. Whilst I have remained gamble free I did have a relapse on the f**s but have since been off them for nearly 2 years. I think it is possible to cut out both at the same time. They're both addictions which are based on the same avoidance techniques.
That said, make sure the 2 addictions are tied together - ie, if you have a f*g that doesn't mean you have a gamble.
Best
Louis
Got through lunchbreak. Just went for a walk and chilled mind out a bit.
i didnt have time to post the other day when I read your hearbreaking post. I am so pleased to see youve dusted youself off and are ready to go again. Something worth having is something worth fighting for and thats the spirit. I may well takeyou up on that drink also, i have some family in worsley near manchester so I could make it a trip to see them nd meet some of the guys and gals on here who are making this year their year.
Sending you positive thoughts and best wishes.
The more the merry manupnow. I'll be there in Dec with 300+ days. I'm doing everything to make it possible.
Got through the day and made it to the train home with no urges to have a bet. The smoking urges are far greater and I think that could be serving as a useful distraction in its own right.
Got to tidy my desk tonight and do some small bits of stitching. I might do some bench pressing in my garage but not going to commit to that just yet! I've got till December to get ripped so no need to rush on that one haha.
It sounds like a positive day bud I'll be there In December but if your GF i will buy you a pint or two to celebrate
KTF
Still no gambling and no cigs etc. I ate like a king though... Mrs thinks I've got worms coz I keep eating. Still need to do my evening tasks but I'll rest up a bit, feed my son and then get going with jobs.
Still going well on day 1. No gambling urges or sites or reading and no smoking or vaping. My mind not been racing so bad just he occasional thought of a smoke.
Well day 1 is done (again). I feel better as a person already as I've corrected a few things that were making me hate myself. I've got lots and lots of other things to correct but piece by piece the jigsaw is coming together. Life is tough. My son just threw up all over his bed after I'd fed him and was about to get ready for bed myself. I've had to deal with this many many times and each time it gets a bit easy as I realise all the steps I carefully need to take to not disturb him and make him vomit more, not to wake my wife so she can keep sane, avoid making noise to cause the dog to scratch my kitchen door down... it's a learning curve but I guess what I'm saying is if you do the right things then life can become easier. My son is really starting to grow now and has entered the growth charts for the first time in his life. He is in the 0.4% percentile so to put that in more basic terms out of a population of 1,000 babies he would be amongst the 4 smallest out of any given sample of 1,000. But that brings me huge huge joy! Elation. Gambling couldn't be further from what I wan to be doing.
Hi Change , everything in life is a learning curve for us , weather it's keeping quiet while feeding your son so as your wife can sleep or dealing with our recovery in order that it works effectively ! .
Your trying something different this time and I admire you for that , I really hope this works for you my friend and that your positivity keeps shining through !.
Take care of yourself Buddy and as for your son as they say " Good things come in small packages "
Day 2 and it's been a decent day. Lots going on at work and I feel dialled into it all again. Coping well at managing my addictions. Got automated payments in place on a daily basis for my savings. Got clean shoes and smart pants. Things are moving in the right direction.
Just feeding my son and watching a documentary about capturing monster fish... beats sweating over a score.
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