Honestly I’m struggling today, I’ve been an addict for over 5 years now. I’ve tried to stop this past year. I find myself just logging in for the free games and end up depositing. I’m so frustrated with myself. It’s a constant battle with myself. I feel so awful, I let my family down all the time. This addiction has changed me. I don’t recognise myself anymore.
Dear Rollercoaster,
All addicts have been there. Have you tried putting blocks in place? Gamban works perfectly fine for me. Also try and limit your access to cash and finally get busy. The three things we need for gambling is 1. Platform e.g a casino or online 2. Money 3. Time. If you remove one out of the equation you will not gamble but advisable you remove all of them
Register for gamban and exclude for the full 5 years, best thing I ever did x
Hi
The gambling addiction was a very unhealthy habit and during my very unhealthy gambling I was mostly running on adrenaline which was very much fear based issues.
I did not understand that walking out of the gambling establisments after losing all of my money I was in a state of emotional truama.
How ever much fear I was in walking in to the gambling establisments with the fear was much greater after wards.
Each time thinking that if I could win would make all my pains be healed.
If I could just win would make all my fears be reduced.
In time by me walking in to the recovery program was a boundary saying I was in so much pain I wanted to heal.
Thank you for showing the strength that you no longer wanted to gamble.
That is and was very powerful of you.
By doing such an action was you setting a healthy boundary for your self.
You have admitted to your self that you do not want or need to gamble again.
It is important to learn and understand our emotional triggers which caused me to go to gambling.
My pains that I could not heal.
My fears that I could not reduce or face.
My unreasonable expectations that I could not reduce.
My fears of loneliness that I could not reduce.
My feelings of boredom that I get rid of.
This was and is a very healthy step you did for your self.
In time as you get healthier you will fell less emotionally vulnerable.
No matter how many times I went back to very painful gambling I knew I wanted out, I had enough pain I was causing on my self.
I do not want or need to gamble today, that is a very simple fact.
I know that when I gambled I made situations and my life more painful.
The very last thing I want or need to do today is gamble.
Dave L
AKA Dave of Beckenham.
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