After a terrible few weeks I have decided that it’s time to start a fresh recovery diary. This will be my last one however. If I disappear from posting then you know why. Basically if I can’t quit this time then I’ll give up trying to give up.
I know I can quit gambling for long periods. I’ve done so before. Twice I’ve managed to go more than a year without gambling. I keep going back to it though and it ends up costing me big. Yes there’s the monetary loss but equally as bad is the damage done to my health, both physical and mental. I simply can’t carry on like this.
Today will be day 1 then. This is it.
Curly.
Welcome back Curly
I'm not sure what to suggest as you been around a while to know about blocks and support.
Nothing changes if nothing changes - break the cycle!
You can do it but you need to want to do it. Reach out and accept help. It's plenty out there.
I will keep an eye on your diary, hope to see frequent updates.
Stay safe just for today
S&B xx
Hi Curly,
I remember you were around when i first joined on here many years ago, i like you have kept relapsing and doing immense damage, i wish you the best on the journey to recovery mate and really hope you can make it.
Harry
Hi Curly, you haven't given up trying to give up pal, so that's a good thing, it's all you can do mate.
Wilsy.
Hi guys,
Thanks so much for the support. I’ll reply to you each individually later.
Feeling positive last few days. No gambling since Saturday. Got to start racking up those days and weeks again. Then it’s just a case of not being an idiot and going back to it. Like I said, this will be my last diary on here. If I fail this time then I’ll disappear from these pages for good. I envy those on here who have managed to beat their demons and are years into their new lives. Hopefully this is the start of a long fruitful recovery journey.
That’s all for now. Time to hit the gym.
Nice to wake up this morning with no contemplation of gambling. It’s over a week now since I last gambled. I’m confident of continuing in this way for the next few weeks.
Years ago when I first came here, I could barely go a day without getting an overwhelming urge to gamble. I don’t have that issue any longer. It’s not stopping gambling that is the difficult part for me. It’s staying stopped that I find hard. Learning to avoid that stupid first bet after a period of abstinence is what I need to master.
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