12 days today,we went out for a walk along the cliff top to see if we could spot a puffin, we did but only with the help of the rspb ladys super powered scope, another day being a normal thats two day trips out in a month i think its a record! sstarted planning for a third and still no sign of wanting to go back to betting.
I didnt post yesterday because it was unlucky for some 13 not me though , two weeks today! still doing well and keeping busy so that i dont fall back into bad habits.i was trusted with £53 in cash yesterday to do shopping,petrol and a few other bits and pieces and didnt even think about betting any of it, chuffed,in the past i would have bet at least some if not all of it.
Nice post Darren. stay strong and take care
Mary
Well done on passing that test with cash, and keep fighting the demon that is the gambling industry. Together we can win, if we stop
into my third week today,its easier this time i think because each night i log in here to post that i've survived another day without doing something stupid,i can't imagine how bad i'd feel now if i broke my unbeaten run.
Well done Darren, taking one day at a time, is a good way to keep going OAU
Suzanne xx
Today is my 17th day,big news today its payslip day,with a week to go until payday and my first real test,on the positive side i started planning my expenditure for next month and was trying to work out how much will be left to save this month after bils debts and money to live on, instead of how much i can spare for betting when wages go in
Just read through your diary for the first time and you're doing really well. Make sure you stay ahead of this addiction and don't fall into thinking you're ok after 3 / 5 / 10 weeks etc. Sincerely well done though!
cheers change always nice to get a new reply so it doesnt feel like im just talking to myself about myself,today is number 21,3 weeks have flown by, good day today looks like im due a tax rebate, another bit to put in the savings and not in the bookies back pocket.
Congratulations on 3 weeks and just as important you are making plans and putting blocks in place.
Keep it going
Best wishes
Well done on the 3 weeks... keep pushing forward and don't slip back into the mire. It's not worth it. You're doing really well so keep it up!
24th day today and i wouldnt have made it without being bailed again by my OH,sometimes i wonder how she manages to keep enough cash back to keep us both afloat,its been most months now for at least the last 3 years! i'm starting to realise i dont need gambling i just need a normal life back.
tonight is payday the big test and normally id be planning my next binge and be on the slippery slope to messing it all up again i'd be working out how much i could squeeze of of the money i have available to bet with before going on to spend the cash i couldnt afford to lose and having those depressed thoughts and having to admit yet again to my other half that i'm a stupid sick untrustworthy no good ****,i'm determined that this time will be different,the money situation should be back to where we should have been last month i intend to pay back the money i stole/borrowed when i had my big lapse last month.
this month should be great i'm going to japan with work so a chance to do something completely different for a few weeks,and a great chance to get some security back for us because i'll have the chance to live on expenses and get in some much needed overtime in.
Thanks for being a star L promise this is the last of our poor days! things are going to get dramatically better from now on and you'll get your reward for sticking by me even though i know its been almost impossible at times ,next stop a new sink tap,toilet seat and a sofa!
a whole month! day 31 and no bets life feels much simpler when i've got enough money to pay for things wonder why i didnt do this sooner now.
37 days without a bet ,had an awful couple of weeks off work with complications from trying to do my own dentristry work after getting a tooth abscess! on the plus side i've had time alone at home and not even thought about gambling,in the past i'd have taken the opportunity to sit and binge gamble any available money i could get my hands on, also its nice that we now have enough cash to pay for proper treatment,its when you have an emergency or unexpected expense that it really hits home that you shouldnt have been giving the bookies all of your money! when i started off my target was to beat my 61 days without a bet and im well over half way now,when i reach 62 my next target will be 100 days,for me the thing that works best is not having access to money,my OH keeps the money and lets me have small amounts only when i need it for petrol etc it doesnt really bother me that much because im so used to having nothing,one day i hope to be able to be trusted with my own money but for now things are going well,i'm off to japan in a fortnight with work and i'll get nearly £700 in cash for expenses up front,i have in the past spent all of my expenses and gone skint for my trip...stupid! this time i've made arrangements for it to be given to me in Yen and for my OH to get a text from my boss so she knows how much i should be arriving home with,the plan is that she'll control the money and pass it to me as i need it,in this day and age of internet banking its easy to do things this way. again i really wish id stopped sooner so far in 2 months my debt is down £1640 and our savings are up £640 and we're managing to live comfortably without struggling. feels like a big win much bigger than if id still been betting!
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