This time i will stop!

Hi KelMar,

Great to see you staying strong an moving on. Yup, mood swings definitely gets worse when we push that self destruct button..No more of that! You are in recovery and making the right choice each day to better urs and your loved ones lives!
Keep at it..what you get out of recovery is priceless! Accept it, enjoy it - you're worth it! ☺

Day at a time..keep up the good work

Sandra x

Thanks Sandra! It is a good feeling and each day feels better! On day 12 now and I'm still doing really well. I can't afford to give this up now cause it will literally ruin my life! I'm tired of it. I'm still young with a 8 year old and for probably 5 years of it I've wasted god knows how much of my life on it! It's sad really! This time I feel different! It's like i want to stop more than I ever have. I'm more determined!

Not been on in a while! Guess I was ashamed to say I let myself down again!!!

I genuinely believed that I was going to kick the habit. When I did it last time, the feeling if guilt and despair really devastated me yet I go back time and time again!

i hate life with an addiction like this...I know in my head that the best thing I could do would be to tell my husband but if he left I don't know what I would do! I just can't take that risk. I know I don't deserve him. my daughters still too young to understand but in a few years she won't be and then what will I do?!

Last time I had absolutely no desire to gamble at all and then from nowhere there I was doing it again! It just takes over me! It's so pathetic! all I've wanted for probably 5 years of my life is to be over this addiction but yet something drags me back into it!