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Sorry Markman that was not my intention. Keep enjoying your recovery, family and the priorities you now lead. Tri x

Hi Mark

Thanks for your post. I am 9 days in and feeling ok. Your plans sound good. I think I am back on the straight and narrow. It was strange that I kept one account open when I excluded last year for my near year of abstinence. Perhaps I believed or hoped that I could be rehabilitated to a controlled gambler status. Of course I am not in that percentile but the passing of time made me forget that I am sure to be a faller and how miserable the fall is. I know you have had some fairly good stretches GF so let's both try to have another go and when the trigger comes divert to something else cheaper and ultimately more fulfilling. There are many reasons why we do what we do but somehow it seems on occasion we feel that we don't deserve stability or equilibrium. I don't see why not. You deserve it too.

Rob

Thank for your lovely posts ODAAT and Downandout. I will reply on your own Diaries over the weekend.

For now, I need to be very strong. 5 days to the good but the urges are alread biting hard. I am lucky to have enough money to last us through June and must not sqander this privileged position. This morning was Australian Rugby League which I love as a sport and tonight is IPL cricket. That little voice is already saying a couple of quid will not hurt. I know that a couple of quid would not hurt - INITIALLY- until I lose and get chasing or win and then lose and then get chasing again. Must and will stay strong.

Mark

How you doing Markman?

Another bump stranger...I sincerely hope that no news is good news as Cornwall starts calling you about this time!

Hi Markman just been surfing on here and seen your profile. I looked back to your first post in Dec 2011. I was reading it with tears in my eyes. I have been there mate, many times. Those morning's after the night before ey. I have been gambling on and off for as long as I can remember (15 years or so) I had stopped for about 2 years without any help so I know I can do the first part. I need to master the 2nd part and that's staying off it. As soon as I made the first bet whatever it was. The demon was just waiting to get me again. I wish I had joined here many years ago or seeked help earlier.

Just want to add I felt so many familiarities reading your post that I thought I would say please don't delete those posts it surfaced a lot of emotion to me and makes me remember the devastating affects of gambling.

Ps may I just ask why your profile says 'I haven't gambled for 2 days'. Do you update this?

Wishing you well in recovery

Hi Markman, and liking your resolve on the 100 day challenge! As part of a team, you've got a great chance of getting to 100 days. Say to yourself: for once, I'm going to do this, whatever life might throw at me!!

All the best

Many thanks for your kind words Mixer. Will be sure to stop by your diary. Best wishes, Mark

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