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Mixed emotions at the minute, the most noticable being frustration. its close to 7 weeks now and the anxiety levels are still so high im finding it difficult to do anything. stringing a sentence together is just so difficult and i cant hold a conversation with anyone. just so annoyed with myself not beingable to do the simple things. my heart just races even if im just sitting still, surely this isnt normal? my doc says it will pass, he says that every week. i still feel like curling up and sitting in the corner, yet i dont feel the need to sit at a poker table anymore

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! just so angry, annoyed and frustrated with myself, just find it so hard to get over this

lets look a the positives here AJ

you dont need to sit at a poker table, so that is brill, and hang on to that!

i think what you are experiencing is a restlessness which is par for course at the stage you are at. So i know this will be asking a lot of you in your current mind state, but if you can take a few deeps breaths, and hang in there, the uncomfortable feelings will pass.

you are doing brilliantly AJ. and i really want you to hang on to that, and get through these frustrations in teh best way that you can, and stay in one piece.

i have every faith in you AJ, hang in and stay safe

today is a good day, and i am living every moment to my full potential

Hello AJ

I have been thinking about you and I always look for your posts.

I suppose any withdrawal will feel horrible until you get into a new state of mind, just be assured, as Carol Ann says it will pass. You are doing so well, I look at your recovery and think of my son " if only"!. Please hang in and don't give in. You are, after all, like everyone here, recovering from an illness and it takes time.

Best wishes

Rosemary

hi aj have not heard from you for a while are you still on track l am 6 weeks 2 days and counting hop eyou had a good week-end l did looking forward to when l can say 7 weeks as long as it is not like the 7 itch you get when you are married post soon l miss them loza xx

oka j what you are experiencing is normal i went thru it to . there is no answer you just stick with what ure doing (and ure doing great)and it will pass and the feelings will minimise .trust me on this ive been there like others on here have too.u just gotta have faith and besides u r gonna make it .stay positive you will do it

kevin

Aj

Its obviously a stress full time for you at the moment, but always look on the bright side of things.

Youve got money in your pocket, youve got you general good health, and you have dozens and dozend of mates wishing you well on this stage of your journey.

Stay with it and im sure things will ease up for you.

I was on a stress councelling course ages ago and they use the 15/10 breathing method to relax. Its quite hard at first but really helps to focus the mind and relax.

Breathe in for 15 seconds then breathe out for 10. If you count the numbers in your head, you find yourself trying to pace your breathing, and before long you will forget what was worrying you.

Give it a try mate, Im generally not into alt therapy or technical blah blah but found this really does help.

C Ya

Hi AJ,

Kim xx

Hello AJ

How are things going for you just now?

Best wishes

Rosemary

thanks AJ have not heard from you for a while are you still ok and gamble free how long is it now l feel positive about illness and hope that will carry me through can't do anything else can l l know l have all your support behind me and with gods will l will get through it keep posting loza xx

yes argos used let you collect them you got them with petrol some days you got double you then savd them up and could exchange them at argos for gifts this was back in the 60s l know l am showing my age glad you are still going strong we are going to beat this l know keep posting to me as l love getting thm loza xx

Hi

Its been a year or so since i joined this site, and "started" my recovery in a way. Even though ive only been around 2 months gamble free, my recovery has started a long time ago.

Ive doing some hardcore thinking about what i want to be and where i want to be with my life - its a confusing thought and i still havent answered it. However, on the flip side, i know where i dont want to be. I dont want to be hopelessly dependant on chasing for that big win, never having any money. Gambling is not what i want to do.

I think im in a position to move on from gambling, i saw it as a way to an easy life, and easy future......wishful thinking. its not going to bring me the riches i once saw as so important. whats important is just getting on with life, being happy, and sharing my own life with those ive neglected over the past 2 years. I must have missed out on the opportunity to meets so many new people in the last 2 years, i dont want to miss another day where im that antisocial b*stard gambling had turned me into.

Dont get me wrong, ive met some amazing people here, all with different stories to tell. If it wasnt for the people here, well, who knows where id be.....

Anyway, i feel like i can move on, i still get the odd urge to play poker, but i know how to deal with them , and more importantly, i know if i do sit at a poker table, I WILL lose, so why go through that again?

So I thank those who have offered all the great advise and support, I thank those at Gamcare - words cant express how greatful i am to everyone and anyone who ive come in contact with through this site.

I know this is a team effort to beat this illness, and we feed off each other for support and guidance, and i cant help but feel slightly guilty for disbanding the recovery ship, but i need to leave this site for many reasons, mostly to move on.

I wish everyone the best of luck in their rocky journeys to a gamble free life.

Thanks

AJ

Hello AJ

I wish you all the best for the future. You have decided for whatever reason, that you do not need the site and I hope your recovery goes from strength to strength. BUT, if for any reason you need to come back, you will, I know, be welcomed.

You were the first person to reply to my very first post and you gave me some very encouraging replies.

Have a great life AJ.

Best wishes

Rosemary

best of luck if you decide to swerve the site mate but before you do spend an hour or so reading a few threads that you may not have read, you may then decide to keep visiting but maybe with a lower profile which may be better for you. warmest congrats on going a couple of months gamble free but these are deep dangerous waters would hate to see you drop your guard. very best of luck whatever you decide john.

AJ

Well done in getting where you have my friend. Long may your progress continue.

So you have decided to move on and leave, your messages will be a lasting source of help and insight to others. If you pull the door closed behind you be sure to remember that we won't be locking it. We'll be here if ever you need us.

Take care AJ.

i wish you all the luck in the world aj i still hope to see u pop on msn at times so we can catch up

remember be positive the future is

ALWAYS brighter without gambling

kevin