Time to stop

Started sticking bets on the sports when I was working, most I would ever deposit would be £5 and even then I was shocked at how fast my money dwindled. Fast forward a few months, out of work and in college thought I would stick a few bets on. Got lucky with a significant 'win'. Continued to bet daily, throwing in xxx multiple times a day. Over the next couple months I raised my bank balance from xxx to xxx. The last weeks I had a scare. Firstly I lost xxx so trying to recoup my losses I chucked in xxx and luckily got my money back. I promised myself that I would never leave myself like that again with only £300 to live off so decided to only bet during the weekend. I thought I couldn't lose any money now, as I stopped betting everyday but this weekend I threw in xxx just wanting to get £100. I placed 2 accas. I was still in the profit but for some unknown reason I felt compelled to get the money back I lost by cashing out. Put the xxx on, lost it. Stuck another xxx in, lost it. Stuck xxx on, lost it. Stuck another xxx in and lost it. Over all I lost on the bets using money directly from my savings. I am now broke for Christmas and feel like xxxx unable to buy my family anything. Never felt as low in my life. Will likely see a couple hundred pound at Christmas and the temptation will be there but I need to hold off. £xxx to me is loads of money and I know those around me are struggling and even if I gave them 1 tenth of thst they would be over the moon. Feel selfish and guilty, haven't been eating these past few days, haven't slept at all and have been avoiding everyone, from texts to real life. Don't know how to explain to my Dad I blew £2000 in one weekend when he earns thst in a month. I hope I'm able to hold onto whatever money I get at Christmas without blowing it on the bets. Want to talk but to scared to say to my parents as they will be furious as they struggle to meet bills working 40 hour plus weeks each and that money would of been amazing for them.