Well where do I start it's been a horrible 11 years of my life stuck with this horrible addiction, abit about myself I've been coming on the site on and off, I seem to stay in contact and when all is forgotten slowly slip back into the dark lonely gambeling world, this time I'm gonna try my best to sort this as I have no1 else to turn to, my gf has said to me if she finds out that I've gambled again she will leave me for good as I got in dept of 2000 which she helped me payoff, so now in 2017 I've got a dept of 5000 which she knows nothing about so I am paying 250 a month for both loans and it's eating me away, it doesn't sound alot but trust me I've lost well over 50k in the past 10 years and I'm only on a normal wage so to me it's crazy money and also I have a house and kid so the 250 doesn't leave me with much money a month at all, so I lost 1450 on Saturday night on roulette with my daughter asleep next to me, I'm actually crying typing this as all i can picture is her little face and what future she has with a dad like me, I try my best for her and I never let her go without, I just need some people to speak to as I'm really low just feel like I work for nothing, thank you for reading
I'm going to keep day by day I don't gamble so here's to day 2, in work keep checking my bank and thinking how much I would of had if didn't do that on Saturday, just want to get over it and get on with my life as been so happy recently not gambleing and seeing things for my money thanks
hi mate
stay in touch , its horrible addiction ,i been there i seem to gambled more destructivly since my daughter was born , how f****ed up is that , it will destroy us , i almost lost my home in 2016 just for a computer generated spin of a ball , roulette is evil
keep it up day by day , just remember the phrase you get nothing for nothing in this world you have to work very hard and make the right decisions once you earned your money too , im doing ok on working and earning but failing on the other part so lets stay in touch and do it for our little girls
joe
Hi you have to stop thinking of the losses, doing this could drive you to gamble again, it's gone you would never win it back and if you did you would give it them back again because you cannot stop because we are compulsive gamblers. The debt will come down if you stop, you owe yourself a better life, stay strong and positive x
Thank you both for the nice comments I'm here for the long run now it's make or break for me now they is no way my daughter is going to see her dad as a gambeling addict, I spoke to my best friend before and he is going to come with me to meeting intill I feel ok with it all so this is next step for me I've never been always say I will.but now is the time for me, have a nice night people
Day 3
Well it's day 3 since I last played the roulette still in the sick upset feeling mode and not sleeping well etc etc don't even feel like going work feel worthless hopefully i can take my mind of things, all have a great day
hi pol 2013 yep this forum is great as we can all connect and pick each other and ill not the best for long term advice on how to quit as im just living day to day but plenty of sucess stories with years and years of keeping away from this horrible addiction we love and hate at same time
yh go work EARN your money , socialize put a smile on your face , roullete is the devil you got knocked down but your not dead
peace
Thanks spraggy and totally agree with what you say, all the best and we can beat this horrible illness, when I'm on dinner now and finding it hard to forget about my loss all the years of the losing and what ifs are with me, take each day at a time and not give in
Day 4 no gamble, been a busy day at work still thought about roulette can't get it out my head seriously need to get a grip of this, what is wrong with me 🙁 it's affecting me big time and making me feel like c**P 🙁 hellllp
Hi man. Your not alone I have not gambled for 50 days. It's not to late when It's normal to feel sensitive to the people that are close to you when you feel the guilt of losing money. You never ever win gambling I've won 37k in two nights on blackjack and lost the entire lot the day after. I just look at it as it's life lessons and that once the debts are paid off life is back to normal. Wish you the best mat
Hi mate sorry to hear about your loss, I just feel they noway out its like a routine sick of lieing to myself, what's people's options on meetings does it help? Cheers
Hi Pol, by meetings I assume you mean GA? If so then I would highly recommend attending. It changed my life. I tried doing it on my own but it just didn't work. You'll be aound like-minded people who understand what you're going through and won't judge on what you have done. Give it a go, you have nothing to lose!
All the best
Thank you for the advice I'm gonna bite the bullet and go for it, I always say I can do it on own but it happens over and over so time to attend them cheers
Day 5 no bets
On way home from a very long days work, payday tomorrow so nice to see abit of money in the bank, hard works starts staying away from the bookies and online casinos, does anybody no software to.download on phone to stop geting me access to casinos etc? Cheers
Hi, your doing well, stay strong for tomorrow, try th free K9 for your mobile x
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