Hi All, My name's Liam.
Had a few failed attempts in the past to stop gambling but today is the day when I stop for good. The last online account has been closed.
I'll not go into detail about my gamblng past ect, I will just simply say that I am ashamed of my past and I want to make a change now. This is day 1 of a new me.
I've simply come onto the forums so I can keep a track on how many days I have been gambling free. My last bet was at 18:30 on 5th November 2014.
I've read a few of the diaries on here and the support you all provide to each other is inspiring. Im determined to not let you all down.
I'll check in every couple of days, probably around 10-11pm.
Thanks
Welcome aboard Liam!
Keep reading and posting... it all helps in our efforts to stay stopped.
Regards.. S.A
Hi Liam, well done for choosing to make a change in your life.
Maybe I can suggest that over time from not gambling try and evaluate the benefits it will bring to your life. Gambling brought me stress, anxiety, money problems. It cost me a lot of relationships and friends. Not saying life will be a picnic from now on, gonna be some tough days I'm sure. Yes it will take a long time to undo damaged caused from gambling. The blues as I call them will die down over time from your last gambling session the temptation will creep back in. Its only natural at some point in the future you will become complasent about gambling. Thats when you need to think back and ask 'do I want to go back to being that person again?'
It will get easier I promise, one day at a time is a step closer to a better future 🙂
Regards, Matt
Hi Guys,
Thanks for the comments S.A and Matt. I can relate to alot of what you have wrote Matt and it's made me think about how I have felt in the past and the affects its had but its now time to think about the positives moving forward and working to rebuild the damaged caused in the past.
Pleased to say Day 1 has been completed successfuly. I cannot say there has not been an urge to gamble, as that would by lying. I have had the fair share of urges but rather than give in like I would have normally, I have kept strong and focused on not letting the demons take over.
Today is the first day in a long time that I have been to work and have not gambled. Usually my routine would be to nip to the bookies and spend my full lunch hour gambling and not eating. Today I spent my hour dinner with some friends that I haven't been spending as muh time with. I had a great hour and this has made me realise what I have missed out on through gambling. After work I drive past all of my local bookies, I did not have the urge to go in. The urges came when I had some free time and thought about any potential 'banker' bets for tonight. Anything from dogs, horses, football ect. I did have a look and had a few in mind however I stopped myself before I went to put the bets on. I told myelf that I did not need to do it and that I would just be letting my urges win if I gave in.
I managed to hold out and spent a nice evening with my girlfiend (who is unaware of the problems I've had).
First gamble free day in a LONG time. The journey starts here!
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