Two years and sucked back in...

Enjoy your evening, make sure that you do enjoy it for all the right reasons.

GT

So I am now 1 month in and how things have changed for the better. Went out to the pub last night no thought at all about gambling, managed to treat myself to a couple of pints and that was all, what a good feeling.

My partner had a good read through my diary while I was out and sent me a text saying she was 'so proud' of what I have achieved, im just glad she can see that I am doing something about my problem.

So heres to many more months gamble free, ill keep my guard up and stay strong, I thank everyone for there support I really wouldn't have been able to get this far with out you all.

Taking the kids to nannas this weekend so me and the other half can have a nice chilled out weekend and relax just what is needed.

Take care

Shaun

well done on ur 1st month shaun keep up the good work mate. it sounds to me things r starting to look up for u pal. going in to the pub and treating ur self to a few beers and staying off the bandits is a massive achievement for u mate. take great pride from that pal.

take care and all the best and im sure il see u bout on the chat room lol

redmanjim

Evening Everyone,

Hope everyone is doing well?

Has been a good weekend, spent some time with the other half yesterday as kids were at nannas for the weekend, had few to many drinks last night but no want and urges.

So all in all another weekend gamble free.

Take it easy

Shaun

Afternoon,

Got a couple of days of work so keeping myself busy, some good news for my partner she has been trying so had to get a new job and has finally got a interview so if she goes on to get the job will be amazing.

Been having a good read through posts today and some inspirational things that people are doing so goes to show we can beat this illness.

Just need to keep making the right choices and not get complacent its still early days in my recovery.

Shaun

Evening,

Moving into my 6th week gamble free.

Been to the pub tonight with the lads had a couple of games of pool and darts, one comment from one of the lads 'surprised Shaun's not having ago on the machine' this shows things were bad with comments like that but a nice reply from me 'I don't waste my money anymore im 5 weeks gamble free' What a good feeling that was.

So what things are not going well....still getting these mood swings feeling up and down all the time....urges come and go getting less all be it there still there....

Was a good yesterday had the day off and instead of sitting around thinking about having a bet I picked my little niece up went for a walk along the sea front and met the other half for lunch.

I hope everyone is doing well with there recovery.

Best regards

Shaun

Evening,

I hope everyone is doing well and staying strong.

Not having a great day today don't know what it is just feel a bit low just think its part of the recovery.

Hopeful will wake up be in a better mood. I will stay strong!!

Regards

Shaun

Morning,

Hope you are feeling a little more upbeat today.

Maybe the low feeling is related to your recovery maybe not. Non CGs have bad days as well , shrug them off and get on with them. CGs relate everything I their life to their addiction. Maybe just maybe you are metemorfasing into a normal person. Frightening isn't it.

Just my thoughts take from them what you want. Sorry about my spelling never been my strong point.

Take care, have a good weekend.

Dusty

Morning Dusty,

Woke up feeling in a better mood, I think I was just thinking too much about what I had been doing for the last year. But like you say I'll shrug it off and move on today is another day.

Don't worry about spelling im not great at it either.

Thanks for your post much appreciated.

Best regards

Shaun

Evening all,

Hope everyone is doing well and had a good weekend.

Today has been a good day, taken the family to the zoo and then for some tea...something I wouldn't have been able to do if I had still been gambling.

Has been another up and down week with a few low days but all in all things are getting better.

Payday on Thursday so will stay focused and keep strong.

Best regards

Shaun

Evening,

Six weeks on and feeling really good about thinks, the want to gamble isn't there anymore (not saying it wont come back).

Think I am going to take a break from a week or so see how I get on alone.

I cant thank people enough for the support with this and the chat room has helped me get where I am today.

Take care everyone

Regards

Shaun

Evening,

Iv not posted for a while been reading a lot and trying to join in the chat room while I can.

Two months gamble free now and feeling really good for it, there is no want to gamble if I meet the lads to watch football I wait in the car while they do what they do if were in the pub I sit there with my pint and leave them to play the machines. This is a massive achievement and looking back to where i was two months ago I really thought I couldn't do it.

The positive of not gambling for me are:-

Spending time with family

Being able to treat my girls

Being able to afford simple things

Having spare money to put away for a holiday.

I would have not had any of these if I had continued the way I was.

My partner has been there for me supporting me through my highs and lows and that has been amazing.

I know this is a long term thing and because I have gone two months doesn't mean I am over it I still have a long way to go and will stay strong and not put my self into a situation.

I hope everyone on here is doing well and will keep reading your diaries.

Best regards

Shaun

Ok think I bet get writing on here again each night even if to stay gamble free.

I watched the bbc3 program on gambling tonight and was left with mixed emotions really hit home what I had been doing and gives me more will to stay gamble free but with all the mentions of bookies and machine has set the urges off.

But 9 weeks gamble free I will stay strong I have this week of work but got things planned each day so I'm not in a situation to gamble.

I'll be back on tomorrow night hopefully in a better frame of mind.

Hope everyone is doing well.

Afternoon,

10 weeks on and things couldn't be any worse, iv not given in still fighting but its taking its toll. This week has been hard, pushing everything good in my life away. I guess its what happens in recovery.

I just feel so low right now I have to do something!

Hopefully things will start to get better...........

Shaun442,

I honestly believe things will get better. Easier said than done but focus on all the benefits you have encountered since you stopped gambling. You will undoubtedly be a better person you might just not see it.

Keep strong. You came here because you weren't happy with the previous you.

Tomso.