Hi Irene,
Wow look at you.....was my karate talk........Irene the green godess...lol
Cracked up when I found out you were doing the on-line dating too....cant harm can it eh? We need to compare notes....still have my introduction tho....worse than an exam!
Tips welcome!
Sue xx
Thanks!
Day 54
Quick post-nightshift. Doing ok.
Oh so vacation came to a close. Sucks don't it? LOL yeah I could use another few weeks about now and hope your day is much better.
Congrats on your days.
hi Irene
Keep racking up the days, will only make you stronger and give you a bigger stranglehold on this addiction
Thanks chaps and chapesses x
Day 55
Was nightshift- mind ran riot! Spent hours trying to convince myself of all the reasons that I really don't have a problem with gambling- hahahahahaha!!!!! Not sure where that came from. In the cold light of day I just need to remember the feelings I had 8 weeks ago and the debt plan to know that I cannot control gambling and refuse to let it control me any longer.
These were the sneaky thoughts I expected alcohol to induce- I realise that I need to be vigilant when tired also.
That aside, got my 1st gamble free bank statement today- didnt need to hide it!!!!!!!!!
That marks a milestone for me- was one of my initial goals.
Lol @ Womble's "green godess" description- more like little Buddha atm!! I read back some of my diary last night- can't believe I moaned cos I "couldnt face chocolate" lol.
Headaches still persisting despite analgesia- def not a hangover!!
lol lol lol couldnt face chocolate? lol lol lol guess the only thing i use to hate after i gambled was facing the cats. yeah the claws come out if they dont get that bag of fresh shrimp. lol lol lol
congrats on them days girl
What a brill description of me - serene and composed but paddling for my life under the muddy water - trouble is I fit the picture of the ugly duckling much better - who knows one day!!!
xxx
Hi I,
Sounds like you're going great guns in your battle right now. Your diary is great.
Maybe catch you in chat later if it works today.
All the best x
Cheers folks for posts x
Day 56=8 weeks
Chuffed to bits with my progress. No great urges until a very short while ago, something triggered strong thoughts of a particular slots game. Need to keep busy.
Off to iron x
Hi Irene
Congrats on your 8 weeks.
Stay strong
Hope ya stuffed them gambling thoughts away and kinda doing a swirlely down the sewer about now. LOL
Guess one good thing about messing up and gambling what feels like your life away is ya got nothing left to give in that area. So yeah I guess them urges sit idle and kinda laugh at my dumb a-ss till there's something to give again, them bast-ards. LOL
Thanks peeps x
Day 57- phew
Well, doing the ironing worked. Killed 2 birds with 1 stone- got a chore done that I detest and kept my mind off flaming slots!!!
I can't blame anyone for my urges but feel last night's was a direct consequence which could have been prevented (makes sense to me!) In future, I will remove myself if it starts.
Kinda happy being back at my "real work" today, although a hectic, post-Christmas muddle. I need the routine in my life. Courts booked for badminton Wed evening. Running app's smiling at me from my phone being blissfully ignored- I will do it.........probably lol.
I had told 2 friends initially about my gambling- 1s on hol and the other I rarely see alone. I did see her today and she asked about my progress- was so chuffed when I told her which made me feel good. The wee star has offered to come to any debt appts with me- didnt have the heart to tell her she's too late lol.
Jan's off to a banging start- got invited to a 50th on Sat evening and a leaving do 2 weeks later. I'll def do the 50th- its in a local place, the other's in City Centre which I'm not too sure about.........
hi irene
well done on getting past the urges, that is totally it they come and go
you have put a lot of hard work in so carry on doing what your doing and enjoying life at same time
Hi there sad to hear you have been waddling, no paddling fast to keep afloat but hooray that you managed it.
Feel about up to my beak today but tomorrow is another day.
Keep strong
xxx
Well at least ya got through the work day and mine has yet to start, pulling a late one this week and yeah got a long night ahead of me.
Sounds like ya got a nice Saturday planned and surely a few cold ones to be found. LOL hell could use one myself about now but thinking my work would frown upon it. LOL
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