Switching addictions are the things heavily on my mind at the moment and I can see with my eyes open and the seeing of the wood, what mine are ! However, some are healthy - ish, yet one particular one I walk a thin line on !! Something I need to process and be wary about. The upshot is gambling doesn't mix into my switches.
Nomophobia - That's one of them, I'm through work and life has been indoctrinated into quite a number of WhatsApp groups and albeit they are all on mute, I still find myself catching up or adding up from first thing in the morning untill last thing at night checking on messages recieved and messages sent !
One of my new escapees, infact even gamcare thinking about it Something I use when Something is bugging me externally. Think possibly as I type this, buy internalising things the key in many things.
A random yet cathartic post for me but moral is Traps are all around us and need Eyes wide open.
Paul stepping out of the alter egoÂ
I'm not a Robot - The sign in capcha made me chuckle this evening as when I'm in the gambling zone, well I'm well and truly a robot.. ..
Random head on today as I unwind. Am sad today, it washed over me earlier, possibly the cold snap we're experiencing ? Who knows, I'm allowed bad days, today was one of themÂ
Declined a last minute invite to a sports dinner tomorrow with some superb sporting guest speakers. Social anxiety the excuse for not attending, but in truth just tired and miserable.
Elixir of life - a fascination of mine for last few years and witnessed it these last few days. I can't really say whether yes or no that my gambling was down to greed, yet as I typed that, it was definitely greed, I thought I was special! How wrong I was !!.
Xmas playing on my mind, a time I like to escape and have complete me time, my selfishness coming to its fore - decisions to be made their as I do have people who would be pleased to see meÂ
Decisions in life, not a strong point but practicingÂ
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