Hi everyone
I haven't been posting as much lately and this will be my last post on this forum. its been a great support network for me and I wouldn't have got this far without it. People have read my diary from my family as I have asked them to because i feel proud of myself. Unfortunately it hasn't received the applause I thought it was going to get. Instead it has caused problems within my family about certain things that happened when I was a compulsive gambler a couple of years ago. It's ok, I created the mess. I can deal with it. But no longer feel I can open up on here. I will still be on chat occasionally. Thanks everyone including forum admin.
Stay safe
Day 53 gamble free
I will not win because I will not stop
good morning mate,
firstly, well done on 53 days, almost at the 2 month mark now...fantastic achievement.
You should be extremely proud as you have come so far and improved so much in so many different aspects.
Im sorry to hear it has caused problems and i hope they get sorted out my friend.
Hopefully catch you in chat sometime
Stay safe fella and try to stay focuseed
Ben
Hello there Gaz
This place is a great place to start and take advice.... Sometimes an outlet runs its course and you need to find a new source or permenant one! Stick to the chat, and the talking.
Well done on 53 days mate what an amazing achievment!
Just a quick up date.
Not been posting or talking much to any fellow non gambling friends and I apologise for that.lot of stuff going on in my life at the moment. Not good! Anyway...
Day 57 gamble free
I will not win because I will not stop
When your feeling the stress and when there is a lot going on you need to talk!!! dont bottle up unload!
You know were i am know you have been v v quiet recently
How you doing Gaz?
Change wrote:
How you doing Gaz?
Hi mate just replied on your diary.
Hi everyone
I'm still going strong and feel ok. 64 days now. That's a long time for me. Coming up to ten weeks. Got a great support network on Facebook group now, that's why I don't come on here as much. This site done wonders for me at the beginning and the people I have met here and also speak to on Facebook are the reason I am overcoming this. My wife also has been an emmense support. I have had no urge to gamble for a few weeks. Nothing. I have become obsessed with trying to find bargains in supermarkets and online. My work is going great. I feel good. Very good. Have had a bad time with other personal things lately but not once thought about gambling. It doesn't mean I think I have beaten it. But at the moment I have it in its place. It will always be in me. But I will control it. Minute by minute hour by hour day by day. There is no stopping me. I will not let my friends who I have made on here down. And I will not let my wife down who has been my rock. Biggest of all I will not let myself down.
Stay safe people
Day 64 gamble free
I will not win because I will not stop
Day 67 and still going strong. On Saturday it will have been 10 weeks. Money's tight at the moment, my missus bday coming up, our baby being born beginning of October but I will get through it without gambling. Being skint isn't so much of a panic anymore. I don't have the guilt to hide. Me and my wife both know where our finances go. There is no lies, there is no deceit. We just get through it! Together!
Stay safe everyone
Day 67 gamble free
I will not win because I will not stop
Over the ten week mark- 71 days. Great feeling, urges a few and far between at the moment. I know they will never disappear. I know they can come back at any point. I will never place another bet! I'm strong, in control, still in debt still got family problems. But do you know what? I don't care! I'm not gambling for myslef! And my wife and daughter! No one else!
Day 71 gamble free
I will not win because I will not stop
Another week draws to a close. Another week gamble free. Another month closer to being debt free. Am I happy in my life at the moment? No! Not really. Hate money hate juggling finances to sort the cr@P out I have caused myself in my ten years of gambling. Very short tempered. Very resentful towards others. To be honest I havnt been happy for months. My last posts have been a lie. My councillor thinks because I am not gambling there is no longer a mask over my problems. Mental problems, family problems, home problems, financial problems, car problems, it's non stop. People say "it's life, deal with it" well I f****n hate life at the moment. Am I happy I don't gamble? Yes. I am! But the problem is the only reason I'm happy is because no one else can blame me for this s**t anymore. I'm in a bad way, a bad mood. It will pass. I'm sure. I know I won't gamble again. Can I see a way out of this s**t? Yea. I can. But that doesn't change the way I feel at the moment. Can't talk to other non gambling friends at the moment because they are moving on. Happy by the looks of it. I ain't! I'm f@cked right off with life!
Day 75 gamble free
I will not win because I will not stop
Not posted for a while. Thought I would show my face. Still going... 88 days now, football season has started so another test for us all. Pleased with my progress over last couple of weeks, feel a lot better in myself. Hope everyone ok
Stay safe
Day 88 gamble free
I will not win because I will not stop
Hi mate,
I'm newly returned to the forum, sadly for me, but just thought I'd pop by and congratulate you on the good work. Nearly three months out of the way, and with your partner expecting, you've certainly got everything to quit for. Well done on making good progress, and I suppose the yin to the yang of your last line, if we do stop, we will win. Victory only comes by not gambling for us CGs.
All the best
Ryan
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