Will Sort It This Time... Confident

Hi,

Anything that involves lying and sneaking around can't be good for a relationship.

Am trying to get over the anger! But time takes time.

BW,

CW

Hi cw, it want a pop lovely if it felt like that I know what I have done and the look on my wife's face so can appreciate how u feel.

Cool swordfish il take a peek not sure how but il find out

Hi, both,

The anger is at my husband, who has caused the trouble in our family, rather than anyone with a gambling problem. Contrary to the tone of some of my posts...

We can disagree politely without it being a pop! I'm not trying to set up a guilt trip; it's important to be realistically aware of the damage but not so guilty that it hinders recovery.

BW,

CW

Uncalled for. How about projecting your constant snide remarks elsewhere Phil. CW is offering a view from the victims perspective. Show a little humility eh?

I have marked your comment as abusive. No need for a personal attack.

Let's not argue in my diary anymore people

I agree as it is your diary after all. Good luck and best wishes

Thanks mate another day bet free today looking forward for tomorrow

And that my friend is what really matters after all

So tomorrow I will have been gamble free for a week no intention of doing so but have been very down in the fact that I keep thinking about the amount of money I have lost in the ten years since I was 18. It breaks my heart to think about it. Hopefully in ten years I will be looking back at how much I have saved!

Day 6- gamble free

I will not win because I will not stop

Feeling very good today best I have felt since the last bet which was now 8 days ago! Very determined but I know from previous experience when you feel you are getting there the evil can just show up without any warning so it is important to keep your guard up all the time! Never forget the hurt this s**t has caused! Keep it at the front of your kind at all times and be aware of it! No longer will this consume me and destroy my life!

Day 8-gamble free

I will not win because I will not stop

Hi Swordfish , thank you for your compliment , I just feel full of positivity since giving up , all the gambling fogs gone and I'm seeing a much better future ahead , which feels kinda good !.

Nice to see youv'e got the first week out the way , think it's always a bit of a toughie TBH , I know it's not the first time youv'e been here but It's a credit to you that you came back and with more determination to beat this for good .

Your so right when you say you have to keep your guard up , as good as I feel now I know mine will be up for life , It's been 9 months since my last bet but I know like anyone here I'm only one bet away from day one and that's not somewhere I want to visit again , you now proberbly feel like me that we can never dabble again ? I know for sure I can't but I'm quite happy to accept that now .

Your doing great fella , just stay focused on want you really want your life to be and it will happen !!

Stay safe and I'll talk to you soon !

Best wishes ........Alan

So day 9 is here and am feeling very good still but as I said must always keep guard up as this vile habit can strike at any point. Although we want to, we must never forget the horrendous feeling after a loss! That gut wrenching feeling after the walk of shame out the bookies. The feeling in the pit of your stomach the day after when you wake up. The thought of how am I going to tell her? The desperate search for loans on the Internet. The cancellation of direct debits. Do I want to go through that again? Never!

Day 9-gamble free

I will not win because I will not stop

Well done swordfish the feelings you describe above bring back awful memories, I am 2 days in although my big losses were a few months ago I have been spending every penny I could get in contact with sometimes for small amounts on huge odds on bets , pathetic really but I am on day 2 and looking forward to day 3 tomorrow got a busy day planned so keep my brain occupied , you seem really determined so hopefully we can get to the 50 day Mark then 100 then 150 and keep on going!

Good luck mate if you ever want to chat give me a shout

Defo Tom! We will almost hit these targets together barring a week! We will do it! No problem!