Will Sort It This Time... Confident

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Hmmm, fantastic eh? Did I tell you how much I like you 😉 I find my diary so demented in places that I can't bring myself to go back & read it but as you are realising, having the support of others running/jogging/sometimes just clinging on besides us make this sometimes treacherous path bearable!

Only 24 days? No only about that mate (I know smokers who count their success by the hour) it's a solid foundation that you add to everyday - ODAAT

Will try get on it tomoz

Evening Swordfish

Try not to let different opinions effect you but in the same breath it's always good to consider them sometimes they can help you.

Just a question and you don't have to answer. Do any of your colleagues now of your current situation? And sorry another one does you company offer any support for compulsive gamblers?

KTF

hi Oldham, that's fine I'll answer. My head is in a very good place. I haven't been this clear headed in a while. And... I actually find myself telling people I am in recovery. I'm actually proud of it! I don't know if that normal but I am. I'm not proud of what I have done in the past borrowing money lying to borrow not paying back family and lying to my wife about money. But Iam proud of the steps I have taken.in that job you work with one person all day and find yourself chatting to them and I tell them because I am proud.

And answer to your other question the company pay for a councilling service called the employee assistance helpline which deal with any sort of problems from robberies to domestic violence to alcoholism to gambling

I get I also proud of it a few months ago I counted up all the people I have told it was way over 50 and in sure some of them will of told others. I was having a pint at the weekend and was chatting to a random block while have a cig and he asked me if I had a bet on the Derby and told him no I'm a compulsive gambler who does not bet anymore I didn't tell him my life story there no shame in doing something about it.

Good your company over some support I imagine it is quite common in your industry.

Take care.

I would be proud if I was you its hard what we are all here doing battling everyday, and as for normal what is normal everyone's view of normal Is different in my opinion one persons normal isn't the next persons normal we are who we are I say!

Morning everyone

Off to work to get the train. My missus needs the car today. I hate the bloody train! Anyway have a cig outside the station I saw the women who works in my former local bookies on way to work. She said hello. I said hi and I told her that I had given it up and was seeing councillor etc. She seemed really pleased for me. It felt good that. Anyway gotta catch this bloody train. Have a good day people and stay gamble free.

Day 25 gamble free

I will not win because I will not stop

morning mate,

i also hate bloody trains, they always seem to be packed, especially during rush hour! 25 days is really good, not long off a month now! the women from the bookies will be proud of what youve done, thats nice to hear fella.

keep it going, catch up soon
Ben

Thanks Julie. Much appreciated. This is not like the other attempts I have made to stop. I always "knew" I was going to have another bet. I thought to myself "it's ok I will keep myself clean for a few months then go back to football bets, I can control it" and I have now accepted I can't control it. But it's ok ! I accept it. There is so much more to life than this addiction which has literally ruled my life. It's all I have thought about for ten years! And now I'm starting to see clearer. There's along way to go! I know that! And again that's ok. I'm looking forward to the fight. But what is really doing this for me is the support from my wife. Honestly, she is unbelievable. I'm very lucky to have her. I know some people on here are not as lucky. But it motivates me more to not put her through it again. How can I? She would still be there if I gambled everything now! She would still be angry but she would be there! And I'm not a p1ss taker so I won't do it to her! And what's more I won't do it to MYSELF! There is no way I can go through the panic, the fear, the stress, the guilt, the lying, anymore! And I don't have to now. I'm in control! I also know that now! It's in me and always will be. But I will learn to control it. Last time I didn't stay close to this site. I thought I could do it on my own. I can't this place is great. The people I have spoke to exchanged details with etc are fantastic people who are helping me through his and Iam helping them.

Anyway, thanks Julie.

Pop by anytime.

Stay safe

Gaz

Thanks Julie I will definitely tell her that. Well done to you aswell by the way.

Gaz

Good chat tonight few people on enjoyed it. Stay safe people

Hi everyone

At work again today. Non stop it feels like at the moment. Feeling really good! Best I have felt in years. Really positive about things. I will not become complacent. I still know this can hit you at anytime. That "pull" towards the bookies. The thought of "quick cash" the despair, the stress, the anxiety.

One day at a time

Day 26- gamble free

I will not win because I will not stop

Day 26 Boom! Go and get yourself a bhunna and an onion bhaji you deserve it! Well done mate you been doing so well!

Your positive thinking has been just what i needed the last few days!

Well done Swordfish. You bring tonnes of positivity to the forums and chatrooms. Keep going.