So here it is after months of stop starting and falling short of my goal to give up and become gf i have decided to join this forum.
Im not one to discuss my feelings with other people (face to face) but i know i need some serious help to get through this.
I have got myself into a mess financially and have borrowed thousands upon thousands to keep this addiction going. Sometimes i win and sometimes i lose but it just doesnt affect me anymore.
I think the hardest realisation for me is that Gambling has affected me more than i originally thought it would have. I have realised that through this last few years it has caused me to lie to family, relationships and to myself. It has caused me depresion and with this i have ended up massively over weight.
From today i am going to tackle both my problems and live a healthier, happier life and enjoy the things that matter the most to me... my family and my child.
I know this is going to be hard and i know im going to face some tough battles especially facing up to the financial mess i have put myself upon selfishly and without the knowledge of my partner.
My only saving grace is that i know if i can stick to this i can be completely debt free and gf in 30 months. I also know that if i can stick to not gambling that within this 30 month period i would have regained my confidence and hopefully have tackled my weight problem.
All i can think about is that every time im in the bookies gambling is that im wasting away my 2 year olds future life as with the hundreds/thousands i waste each month could give her and us so much more in return than a quick hit of a buzz of winning.
Today is my first day. I will report back to you every day. I am addicted to gambling and addicted to an unhealthy lifestyle. Today is the start of something new.
Good luck to you. Well done for facing up to it. Always remember why you came here, you can do it.
Russ
I
To
Been a few days now without gambling. It hasn't crossed my mind too much. Just facing the reality of the debts that I have accrued over the passed 2 years.
It's actually very frightening to look at the sums that I have actually wasted on something. It is very stressful knowing that I have had to keep this away from my partner but I have sat down and realistically calculated that within 30 months I will be debt free.
This has also spurred me on to start to focus on losing weight and having a healthier lifestyle. I think both my addiction to gambling and food have stemmed from one another. I gamble because I'm overweight and it gives me a buzz. And I over eat as I'm down and depressed about the level of gambling and financial pressure in putting on myself.
i truly believe that they both go hand in hand and I know I need to tackle them both!!!
We are available 24 hours a day, every day of the year. You can also contact us for free on 0808 80 20 133. If you would like to find out more about the service before you start, including information on confidentiality, please click below. Call recordings and chat transcripts are saved for 28 days for quality assurance.
