Adam123.....2000 days gamble free.......a big thank you to all on gamcare...... xxxx

Well ive made it here..... 2000 days...... where do i start? well of course with a massive thank you to all that got me here..... u all know who u are..... all the friends, mods included obviously.... .mods who are here for support everyday..... u all really make a difference.... i come to chat room every night to support and get support and all the mods work tirelessly to support and make a safe space for all....... To all my fellow users of Gamcare...... we come here in a bad place, we often stay in that tough place for a long time, but we all strive to get better day after day day at a time and i thank you all for being there for me.

This month has been such a wonderful month for me...... after such a tough month last month.....Last month my mum had a heart attack and my sister got diagnosed with breast cancer..... ive obviously been in bits as they are my world but thankfully they are both on the road to recovery.  Then this month on the flipside Spurs won the Europa League..... a 17 year wait ive had for a spurs trophy and theres been years of football banter and comments kind of like football bullying to be fair which has ruined many a weekend and friendship.... but now theres no room for bullying and we are in the champions league next season to boot.  Then as its my birthday on friday i had a birthday bbq yesturday where i put up spurs bunting and had friends over to eat and be merry....it was a lovely day.

Ive talked enough about why i came here as a unhealthy gambler and the road i've made with ur help to recovery.......  Ive also talked on here about how financially i started living again at my folks for 12 years after getting skitsophrenia.......They knew i couldnt live on my own at that time but thankfully invested money with me into a flat i could work towards to live in in the future when i was better...... I got a mortgage and carried on living with them and saved and saved to pay back as much as i could..... paid off the mortgage, paid back my parents and finally became independent again 3 years ago almost to the day in 2022 by moving into this flat of mine.......It was a huge thing for me living on my own with skitsophrenia but my independence is my world and im proud of that independence.

At the height of my mental health issues i lost my job that i loved soo much and had worked soo hard to get to that point..... i didnt think id get employed again and was focused on just living without voices let alone holding down a job...... Only 12% of people with skitsophrenia are able to have a job....... This job, being able to contribute to society means soo much to me it gives me confidence, it gives me pride, it gives me focus, it gives me strength, it gives me a reason to go to bed, it gives me a reason to get up again.  I allmost lost my job again in the hospital in 2018 when gambling was affecting my stress and work and thankfuly after a mental episode with 6 weeks off i was able to keep my role within an adjusted role....... I'm very thankful for this.  I like to think i really contribute to the running of the hospital and the moral of my colleagues.

My helath i have worked and worked on to lose weight and be healthy..... Ive tlaked about how  i dont smoke or drink nowadays and how it helps with my mental health..... Ive talked about how i done 3 marathons of walking in a week for a works step challenge..... I ve talked about how ive walked 5 miles a day average of the last year to keep healthy.... steps have become anothe robsession...ive also played table tennis with my folks.... ill contiue this effort and hopefully it will reap its rewards with a longer life span.... will we see.

ive also spent alot of time on gaming, watching box sets and watching sports....... This time has brought me closer to family and friends and helped to enjoy life a lot outside of work.

I tend to obssess about finances and ive made an effeort to think less and scrutinesses myself less this year but in all honesty its not something i can turn off..... i believe i will allways be tough on myself and easy on everyone else..... here's hoping i can look back in retirement and read back my 3000 posts on here and see it was all worth it and ive had a successful life......

Many thanks adam xx