Feeling Positive!!

I’m going to start off with the most positive thing of my gambling journey, today I’m 34 days gambling free after 3 years of gambling. 

I started off on sports betting online (Football/Tennis) used to be a weekend thing only, not a lot of money involved at all it was fun to start with as it’s meant to be had a few good wins. I got used to that winning feeling then became greedy wanting more and more even when I won I wanted more, started reversing withdrawals, before I knew it I was betting way larger amounts than I ever imagined to try and recoup my losses. 

I started to look forward to payday just to have my next opportunity to gamble this is when I started to realise gambling is starting to become a problem I kept telling myself this can’t be normal? Why would anyone ever look forward to losing money? 

I decided enough is enough I can’t keep doing this having to lie to people and use up valuable time, it isolated me from the real world and I was stuck in the gambling world. I then decided to put GamStop in place and contact Gamcare via telephone and they also advised me to put in place GamBan with both of these in place I thought that would be it. 

Few days had passed by without a bet, then I had a bad day and looked up football matches that day and set off to the bookies in my car to place the bet I thought all morning about. I got to the door of the bookies about to walk in the door and I just couldn’t do it. I turned around and got back in my car and went home that bet was never placed I checked the results later that day and I would of lost. 

This was the turning point for me it proved something I’m never thought would ever change, it proved I have the willpower to stop it proved I can say no to gambling it proved I never really wanted to gamble. 

I still have thoughts about gambling now and have the urges to gamble it’s not easy but everyday I feel like I’m getting closer to the person I really am!