I now know that my addictions and obsessions just idicated how emotionally vulnerable I was. Abstaining from unhealthy habits is just the start of us healing our pains, reducing our fears and exchanging unhealthy habits in to healthy habits.

Hi

I use to think that all I wanted in my life was to gamble and win money.

By having such unhealthy habits I hurt my self and people who were close to me.

I am a non religious person and today that any person can have a healthy life with or with out any religious beliefs.

The simple truth no one could stop me gambling, tha was going to be my healthy daily choice.

What were my emotional triggers.

Why did I live in so many fears.

Why did I keep procrstinating, I was cheating my self.

I  found a certain healthy where there were very healthy therapies.

I could not articualet or explain why I Had such unhealthy habits.

I now know that every time I went to gambling I made things much worse and more painful.

I lives in so many fears and by telling so many lies I betrayed people trust of me.

When I walked in to the recovery could I respect my self.

When I walked in to the recovery could I love my self.

When I walked in to the recovery could I completely honest with my self.

How long before you start  to heal the hurt inner child in you.

When do you surrender to the simple fact that gambling of any form is not healthy for me jsut for today.

How much time and effort am I willing to invest in to my recovery program today.

Do I each day write down  my needs my wants and my goals.

What is my worth today.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham