The light bulb moment is very enlightening moment

Hi

In recovery there is lots of material which is read time and time again.

Then someone will say something that helps you understand what recovery means.

That the unhealthy addictions and unhealthy obsessions are just the symptoms.

That no one made me gamble, it was a form of escape how emotionally vulnerable I use to feel.

I got to understand that I was emotionally vulnerable.

I was not a bad person.

I was not a evil person.

I was not a stupid person.

I could not see that I was causing myself more and more pains.

By causing my self more and more pains it caused unhealthy fears in me to grow to unbearable levels.

Anxiety, stress panic were all fear based issues.

Today I do not want or need to live in fear any more.

Today I am healing the hurt inner child in me.

Today I am nurturing and encouraging the hurt inner child in me to live with fear today.

By healing my pains and reducing my fears my hurt inner child in me comes out to play today. 

Emotional intimacy greatly helps in the healing of my hurt inner child in me.

Healing Love and peace to every one.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham