Hi
In recovery there is lots of material which is read time and time again.
Then someone will say something that helps you understand what recovery means.
That the unhealthy addictions and unhealthy obsessions are just the symptoms.
That no one made me gamble, it was a form of escape how emotionally vulnerable I use to feel.
I got to understand that I was emotionally vulnerable.
I was not a bad person.
I was not a evil person.
I was not a stupid person.
I could not see that I was causing myself more and more pains.
By causing my self more and more pains it caused unhealthy fears in me to grow to unbearable levels.
Anxiety, stress panic were all fear based issues.
Today I do not want or need to live in fear any more.
Today I am healing the hurt inner child in me.
Today I am nurturing and encouraging the hurt inner child in me to live with fear today.
By healing my pains and reducing my fears my hurt inner child in me comes out to play today.Â
Emotional intimacy greatly helps in the healing of my hurt inner child in me.
Healing Love and peace to every one.
Dave L
AKA Dave of Beckenham Â
Well said Dave L
I to am returning to the reality than I will always be a loser long term if I return to gambling .
Finally all blocks in place again .Self exclusion etcÂ
Had to reach an all time low again for it to happen but there comes a point when enough is enough..
You really see the picture more clearly when you can distance yourself from contributing your funds to the gambling industry and the diseaseÂ
VC50
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@cp83aos4f7 Hi
Thank you.
Recovery is about giving up unhealthy actions and unhealthy words.
Abstain only then can healing start.
I Had some many fears in me now reduced to very low levels.
By fulling my needs my wants and my goals I prostcranate far less often.
In time we understand how unhealthy I use to be.
Dave L
Hi VC50
Returning back to gambling is a very unhealthy painful path. Â
The word loser is not a very healthy way to see yourself.
Just understand that you were emotionally vulnerable.
For me being hard on my self is not being healthy.
You have got blocks in place again.
That could mean you value yourself more today.
That all time low was very much self inflicted pains.
Just for today I do not want to hurt my self or other people.
Yes the day come when you have to much pain and then, enough is enough..
You can distance yourself from being very unhealthy and very vulnerable to making much healthier choices in your life.
The gambling industry can survive without my money today. LOL.
Healing peace and happiness to every one.
Dave L
AKA Dave of Beckenham
@cp83aos4f7 Hi
In recovery I get to understand that if I go back to gambling I make things more painful in my life.
Blocks help us take up healthier paths and healthier choices each day.
Would you say that an all time low is living in growing pains and high levels of fears.
Yes giving up self abuse is the point we say enough is enough of hurting our self.
We are just emotionally vulnerable.
We are not bad or evil people we just react in certain unhealthy ways.
Thank you for sharing your self with us.
That is a healthy sign of honesty.
Dave L
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