8..9..22 this time i will succeed

Dear Cbl,

Well done for posting on our Forum and I'm glad to hear you are ready to stop. Keep us posted on how your are getting on.

There is lots of additional help and support available. Please feel free to contact the helpline on 0808 8020 133 or via our live chat available from the website https://www.gamcare.org.uk/get-support/talk-to-us-now/ both of which are open seven days a week, 24 hours a day 

Wishing you all the very best,

Ryan

Forum Admin

Hi Cbl

I am sorry to hear you are feeling vulnerable and in pain at this time.

I was consumed by my addiction for some and by attending recovery meetings I go to abstain and heal my deep seated pains.

When I turned to gambling I was consumed in my fears.

It would cause an adrenline rush in me that I though was exciting and happiness.

In time I do not need to escape from myself or any one else.

It was helped by saying to myself just for today only I will not gamble.

By attending the meeting of GA I was aable to put clean time in.

When ever I did break out again and agin I got to understand what my emotional triggers were.

In time I would understand that the gambling addiction and my obsessions was just the symptoms that I was emotionally vulnerable, the emotional triggers indicated that I was vulnerable and reacted in some very unhealthy ways.

In my recovery I got to understand my emotional triggers, pains I could not heal, fears I could not face, frustrations due to my unreasonable expectations of people life and situations, loneliness, and boredom.

I got to understand my anger was an unhealthy reaction to pains I could not heal, fears I could not face, frustrations due to my unreasonable expectations of people life and situations.

I became selfish in my recovery, I did not want to self destroy myself and my family.

I also did not work for the rest of life, giving all my hard earned money to complete strangers, while I suffered in my pains.

Going to meetings became more and more important to my well being, in the meetings I got to understand more and more about how emotionallly vulnerable I was. 

I did not want to waste my life away, I did not want to my self or my family any more, I did not want to be a lonely isolated person any more.

I was willing to exchange each unhealthy habit and exchange them in to healthy habits. 

When do you start to peel back the onion and expose the hurt inner child in you?

Love healing and peace to everyone.

Dave L

AKA Dave Of Beckenham UK

@gadaveuk 

Evening dave.

52 now mate and been gambling since 15.

By 18 was hooked and started to control my life.

Was a postman for 20 years so finished by 12 everyday then straight to the pub/betting shop.

Cut a very long story short I do know my stuff knowledge wise with the horses but as you know it was just tokens. 

Over the years had so many yankee bets come in but through getting drunk and wanting that buzz could never stop.

Had some great times going round the country visiting a lot of tracks and if I had discipline it might have been different. 

Unfortunately loved drink just as much and you just take too many risks/stupid bets.

Now paying the price.

Gave up the booze and I did still continue to gamble and had a few touches but the rush was still there.

So looking back I blamed the drink but in truth I'm just a compulsive gambler .

Anyway take care.

Hopefully talk again

Not sure what I'm feeling maybe just numb.

Messed up today. 

First bet for a month.

Decided to have a look at the racing and fancied a horse,,really thought if it gets beat I could except it. 

History tells me 7 times out of ten I end up chasing and that's what I did.

Do we ever really learn.

I know some people give up completely but what is the percentage I wonder.

I hope who ever reads this has been strong and got through today without succumbing to temptation. 

Cbl

@cbl 

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