How could I and many people think that an addiction or obsessions controls them. Is that in any way true.

Hi

I did not think that my addictions and obsessions showed how emotionally vulnerable I was.

I used the word the buzz or the adrenaline rush as being on a high when I was completely consumed by my addictions and my obsesssions.

I was told that recovery numbers in the gambling addiction recovery programme was very low.

I am a non religious person. 

Yet I am healthier strengthened by embracing spirtual values in to my life.

Each time I come out of a gambling establlishment completey broke and filled with so many fears they over whelmed me.

Each time I come out of a gambling establlishment completey broke in a state of panick and anxiety not knowing which way to trun.

Each time I come out to gambling establlishments I needed to understand what were my emotional triggers.

Was it my emotional triggers it due to my pains I could not heal or reduce.

Was it my emotional triggers it due to my fears that I could not face or reduce.

Was it my emotional triggers it due to my unreasonable expectations and my frusutrations due to people life and situations not going my way.

Was it my emotional triggers of feeling lonely isolated and aloner.

Was it my emotional triggers due to the of feeling boredom because I was not able to feel successful in my self or doing the things I do.

How could I and many people think that an addiction or obsessions controls them. Is that in any way true.

My emotional triggers were very unhealthy reactions to people life and situations.

The longer I was involved in unhealthy habits and unhealthy addictions the longer it would take me to heal to be a much healthier person.

For me the recovery program is about healing the hurt inner child in me.

My anger is a very unhealthy reaction to the pains in me not being healed.

My anger is a very unhealthy reaction to the fears in me not being faced and reduced.

My anger is a very unhealthy reaction to the frustrations in me due to my unresonable expectations of people life and situations.

My emotional triggers were a very unhealthy reaction.

Only once I start to heal do I start to have healthy interactions with all people.

Only once I start to heal do I start to open up to therapies.

Only once I start to heal do I start to open and trust other people.

Only once I start to heal do I start to be able to articulate exactly what my feelings and emotions were.

Healing the hurt inner child takes time.

Healing is a very slow process, and with like minded people we get to understand our self more and more.

Fears in us reduce, we start to have more focus in our life.

With fears reducing there is less anxiety.

With fears reducing there is less stress.

With fears reducing there is less panicking.

By living for today and being much healthier we open up to more posssibilies.

Entering recovery we start to value our self and our life.

Once we learn to love our self, we can then love other people.

Once we learn to respect our self, we can then other people.

Love and peace to every one.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham