I use to say that work stressed me out, that Christmas stressed me out, that people stressed me out, that Tax Time stressed me out, Is not Stress anxiety panic fear based.

Hi

I use to say and think that I use to say that work stressed me out, that Christmas stressed me out, that people stressed me out, that Tax Time stressed me out, Is not Stress anxiety panic fear based.

Now I understand that with my fears I reacted in so many ways in unhealthy ways.

How many times did I proctrasdtinate and leave things to the last moment.

Now I understand no one caused me more stress than I caused my self.

I decided to arrive early at meetings, I was more rellaxed and able to learn more when I was realxed and comfortable with in my self.

Now I understand that the pains of my past caused fears in me I did not understand or reduce.

Being in recovery I would find out that my unhealthy reactions to people life and situations caused un healthy reactions.

At first in the recovery program I would be hesitant to talk about how vulnerable I was.

Being in the recovery program for over 52 years I am able to interact in my life and not react in such unhealthy ways.

Once in the recovery program I both wanted and needed to give up unhealthy habits just for today.

Every time I gambled I made things much worse for my self.

There were many people who tried to push religion on me, it was very unhealthy for me.

The people who demonstrated healthy habits to me helped me learn healthier ways of living my life.

For me the recovery program helped me help my self.

I was clean for some time and then noticed I was still fillled with anxiety and stress but did not understand why.

Once I crossed that invisible line in to therapies that was very powerful for me.

I did not want or need to talk about money lost, time lost or being in action.

In my therapes I would be able to articulate what my feelings and emotions were all about.

For me the recovery program helped me start to heal my hurt inner child.

Love and peace to every one.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham