Ive allways been competitive, it first it helped me in life thru being good at sports and pretty good academically, but once at a certain age i first couldnt deal with a loss gambling wise id keep going and going untill id lost an amount that made me feel sick.....or id keep entering tournaments about my pay bracket, against pros who couldnt easily beat me......
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Nowadays i focus a lot on work thru my day times and evenings i think about it at home..... I try my best but physically work myself into the ground..... like yesturday i got home and my legs were soo sore and they still are this evening even after a holiday day spent in bed,
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Also im an all or nothing person and ive been focusing on my diet and fitness for a couple of years but have recently spent too much time on it and really got myself into poor positions where ive over done it and am very fatigued.
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Also on gaming ill not play for weeks on end then will play for 13 hours in a day or two...... I really cant get myself a happy median.....
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Is this a character flaw of many on here or is it just me?
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Love to hear opinions
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Adam
Hi Adam,Â
I'd say I get obsessed more than anything
Very short attention span and either very forgetful or way too intense
Essentially I also find it really hard to moderate anything at all in life
Very draining but can be useful when used in the right way
Hi
Life in my recovery was about balance in my needs my wants and my goals and the risk taking was about riding on adrenaline rush.
Yet I tend to think that adrenaline rush is very much fear based issues.
Dave L
I am an all-or-nothing-at-all type of person.
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In fact, I've recently been diagnosed as having OCPD - Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder.
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In doing some research, some say it is misnamed and confused with OCD. It might also be better called Perfectionistic Personality Disorder. So, I try to do things perfectly. I did that with gambling. I tried to develop a successful handicapping system for betting horses. I even gathered data and used an old IBM mainframe computer to analyze the data back in the mid-60s. Needless to say it didn't work out and I joined GA in 1991.Â
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Today I'm in therapy to understand why I tried to somethings perfectly and to stop it and live a more balanced/imperfect life. Thanks for posting and all the best.
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Rich in Florida
Hi
In time I became content and happy with any link of healthy progress.
Being impatient and intolerant indicates how hard we are being on our self.
Recovery is about appreciating every moment in our healthy progress in our growing and in our healing.
Dave L
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