This is my 4th time I’ve relapsed. I have been gambling since I was 18 am now 35 got jack all to show for it and hate myself for it and for thinking how much I’ve spent over that time and the lives I’ve ruined specially my family. Am lucky to have a partner which I no will help me through these bad times even considering I don’t think I deserve it. So this is my first step of trying something different because After so many years of trying to fix myself I never could because I never could say to myself I had a gambling problem. I do have a serious gambling problem And just saying that on here feels like a small step forward  I no this is not going to be easy I am ready to change my life For the better as the gambling life will take you to once place and I refuse to put my family through this again. help or advice will be much appreciated.
Dear @dave2580,
Thank you for posting and sharing some of your story with us, it's a very supportive community here on our Forum and you'll always receive lots of advice, help and encouragement.Â
I'm sorry to hear you're experiencing feelings of self hate, please be kind to yourself and remember that a relapse doesn't mean this is the way it has to stay. You can do this, you can make the change and we're here for you to help you do it.
It's great to hear you have a supportive partner, we would always encourage you to open up and talk about how you're feeling. You're right, you've taken a step forward, a really big one by admitting you have a problem, telling your partner and sharing your thoughts and feelings on here.
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Sending you all the best, remember to have faith in yourself and your ability to become gamble free.
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