40 years of gambling.

All the best fella.

First stop gamstop google it and sign up that's your first move mate no more online betting. Good luck

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Thanks for your reply’s.Am having trouble sleeping so have decided to put a few more of my thoughts down.Am not going to worry about the loan companies who gave me loans even though my credit report was dire.They should have been more careful.Hopefully they will go to debt collection agencies.At my age I don’t care about my credit score as I don’t want any more loans to gamble with.From my experience if you stop gambling and you go all out to clear your debts and improve your credit score it’s only to put yourself in a position to gamble again.A problem gambler should never have any line of credit so a terrible credit score is a:the way to go.This means that for the first 6 years of your recovery the only IDIOTS who will give you money are payday loan companies..Getting sleepy now as my fighting spirit is returning.Will be back tomorrow evening.

Fell out of my bed overnight and landed on my knee.This is probably due to stress and being in a bad place.Also my healthy eating goes out the window as I eat biscuits crisps and cereals to try to change my low mood.Losing is not good full stop.

Wander if I really should be working.Have no enthusiasm and just want to sit down and drink coffee.Maybe getting sacked is on the cards.Must visit my Mother who is in hospital after a fall.Went last Friday and was in tears on the ward when I saw her.Need to be stronger this afternoon.These are days I would not wish on anyone.

Anyway Sports betting online for the last 13 years with some ups and a lot of downs.Online you bet larger and quicker.As I am broke today I want to sleep so will rest for a while.

Watching a movie.Manchester by the sea on Amazon prime.Its not bad.

Well done mate; good luck with it. Use Gamstop and Gamban. Really helps.

Still struggling but have not gambled.The withdrawals are really bad so I have to avoid all contact with people.Was eating some bread and a tooth came off my partial dentures.Its on the upper deck and is quiet central so that’s another reason to keep contact with people to the minimum.As I don’t smoke I have to be careful not to abuse food.Not eat junk food to lift the spirits.

Think I will have to stop watching football.Have lost more money on football over the yearsEverytime I lay a 0-0:and if finishes 0-0 it rips me apart.The players are earning on average £100.000 a month for keeping fit.They are lottery winners for 15 years in a row.Have got a season ticket for a London club but have no interest in going.Why do I want to watch pampered young men who have nothing in common with me.What I earn in a year they take 3 days to make.Plus having that money means they become landlords and life is one long party.If you have lost money on sports betting turn the sky sports off and take up new past times.Plan to climb a mountain or travel the world but don’t sit on your backside watching multi millionaires keep fit.

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Totally agree...I used to follow man utd in mid 70's till late 80,s when loyalty meant something to the players, got rid of sky ages ago, rarely watch them even on MOD. Rather do something worthwhile or spend my money on son.

Good luck to you anyway and to all who are battling this horrible disease, get the support you need and focus on the person you want to be.

Blubird1

Thanks Bluemountain.You have got your priorities right.

Good morning.Have not gambled since las Sunday 28th October.My motivation or spirit of life is still in a bad place.Suppose I should not be surprised by this.Am having to put on a front that everything is ok when it really is not.Only appreciate money when I have no money.Which means I will only appreciate my eyesight if I am in danger of losing it.Only appreciate my job after being given a final written warning or being sacked.At least I slept last night and did not watch any sport yesterday evening.Do not want to talk about football as though I have some stake in it.Years ago we used to talk about the plot in Eastenders now we talk about football which is a world I want nothing to do with.Today my priority is to eat fruit and vegetables and keep my head down and try to let go of the anger over the losses and the debt it has brought.

It’s tough but still hanging in there.Have to feel this misery as I don’t want to reach these lows again.Have eaten lunch and getting prepared for afternoon.Will not watch any sport today or get drawn into any conversations regarding sport.Sports betting has caused havoc in my life for too long.Trusitng trainers and jockeys.Players missing penalties when I need over 2.5 goals.France drawing 0-0 with Luxembourg the list goes on and on.