Another relapse

Hi mate I my self am the same as you started gambling at 17/18 now 35 tried a few times to quite lasted a week or 2 max but one year ago exactly tomorrow 31st October 2023 I came clean with my family my wife and friends I managed to stay clean for about 3 months and then I had a relapse but I didn't lose any money I placed a bet on a fobt machine and walked out the betting shop in tears before I saw the results went home and joined Moses fast forward a month or so got some bad news about my dad and ended up going in a service station arcade and lost about 80/100 in a machine but realized what I was doing before it got to bad then around 60 days ago I went to buy a car and had a few grand in cash on me I talked my self out of the car and was on the way home but ended up in a betting shop and lost the lot but I noticed I slowly let the addiction creep back in once I start I can't stop and really lernt a lesson people like me and you can not gamble as it will end in a massive problems you already went a year so you can do it again  and again till you no longer won't to gamble you can do this stay strong and resist the urge at all cost 

The first thing that is always important is you admitted you have a problem. What is done is done there is no getting away from what has been done.

The time now is to put the relevant blocks in place and seek the help you need and deserve. Firstly I would recommend going to every website you are signed up to and self exclude, or go even further and access blocking apps/websites. Talk to Gamban they could be of help.

Next is to keep coming back here to post your feelings and thoughts I find it handy, maybe keep a diary. But also contact Gamcare personally and get the professional help from them they can give.

Good Luck on your journey 🙂 and keep coming back

First time joining this community and it does give me some hope seeing people are having success with the same struggles I have. I had put up all the varied blocks but me being me I found sites that weren’t blocked and now I’m in a spiral that I have less than a quarter of my salary I was paid yesterday. I want to come clean to my wife but I know she will leave me which is only compounding the anxiety and dread. Yet despite all of this I’m still fighting myself with thoughts of I can just win it back when of course even when I’m ‘winning’ im actually losing. Not really expecting any response to this just felt like I needed let someone know.  Thanks for listening. 

@8376ewft2v 

I understand fully what your going few.hiding it from your love ones is never a good idea as the longer it goes on the worse it gets. 

I would definitely open up to your partner.just don't lie to them everything and tell them the reason why you have hidden it from them for so long.

Hope all goes well and you beat this horrible disease what we all suffer from 

@8376ewft2v  sorry to hear that and totally get it as I fallen into the same trap. I have told my wife, she didn't leave me, it's a work in progress. I've got On Gordon Moody, they are amazing, early days for me and I'm still gambling but made steps in the right direction. Hope u are in ok.