Another relapse

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 Agmc
(@hop691x5s0)
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Hi all, here after another relapse. I had previously gone a year without gambling and i felt a massive weight had been lifted from my shoulders. I have been gambling since the age of 17, i am now 28 with no savings, 2 credit card debts, 2 loans and 2 overdrafts  all as a result of gambling. 

I’ve always know i have a problem with this and every single day is a struggle, i have previously opened up about this to my family and girlfriend however this time i am too ashamed to do so. I constantly have voices in my head which spiral out of control and every single day i worry about money. The anxiety of this all is becoming far too much for me and i honestly can’t take this anymore. Gambling is a selfish addiction and i feel so low bringing the ones that i love down with me. I am totally ashamed at myself for relapsing and i am seriously struggling right now. 

i really need to hear from someone who understands these daily struggles of mine. It is impossible to avoid any form of gambling just now with the increase in midweek games and gambling adverts being on my tv every half hour. I can’t keep living like this - gambling turns my day into night, sometimes i go a full day without eating due to my day being consumed with gambling. I am so low right now and i am totally ashamed in myself, i can’t bring myself to tell my family or girlfriend this time round as i’ve had chance after chance with this horrible addiction. 

this is a bit of a bible being posted here but i really needed to get this off my chest and vent to something or someone, if anyone by chance is reading all of this please tell me things get better, i am so sick of feeling like this everyday, i’m knocking myself ill over this and i can’t do this much longer. I could really use any form of positivity from anyone, i need to fight this horrible disease once again from scratch. 

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Posted : 30th October 2024 12:57 am
(@4bi3x7t1je)
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Hi mate I my self am the same as you started gambling at 17/18 now 35 tried a few times to quite lasted a week or 2 max but one year ago exactly tomorrow 31st October 2023 I came clean with my family my wife and friends I managed to stay clean for about 3 months and then I had a relapse but I didn't lose any money I placed a bet on a fobt machine and walked out the betting shop in tears before I saw the results went home and joined Moses fast forward a month or so got some bad news about my dad and ended up going in a service station arcade and lost about 80/100 in a machine but realized what I was doing before it got to bad then around 60 days ago I went to buy a car and had a few grand in cash on me I talked my self out of the car and was on the way home but ended up in a betting shop and lost the lot but I noticed I slowly let the addiction creep back in once I start I can't stop and really lernt a lesson people like me and you can not gamble as it will end in a massive problems you already went a year so you can do it again  and again till you no longer won't to gamble you can do this stay strong and resist the urge at all cost 

 
Posted : 30th October 2024 6:17 pm
(@hit0f4l2rn)
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The first thing that is always important is you admitted you have a problem. What is done is done there is no getting away from what has been done.

 

The time now is to put the relevant blocks in place and seek the help you need and deserve. Firstly I would recommend going to every website you are signed up to and self exclude, or go even further and access blocking apps/websites. Talk to Gamban they could be of help.

 

Next is to keep coming back here to post your feelings and thoughts I find it handy, maybe keep a diary. But also contact Gamcare personally and get the professional help from them they can give.

 

Good Luck on your journey 🙂 and keep coming back

 
Posted : 31st October 2024 10:47 am
(@8376ewft2v)
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First time joining this community and it does give me some hope seeing people are having success with the same struggles I have. I had put up all the varied blocks but me being me I found sites that weren’t blocked and now I’m in a spiral that I have less than a quarter of my salary I was paid yesterday. I want to come clean to my wife but I know she will leave me which is only compounding the anxiety and dread. Yet despite all of this I’m still fighting myself with thoughts of I can just win it back when of course even when I’m ‘winning’ im actually losing. Not really expecting any response to this just felt like I needed let someone know.  Thanks for listening. 

 
Posted : 1st November 2024 2:36 pm
(@d207jhcimf)
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@8376ewft2v 

I understand fully what your going few.hiding it from your love ones is never a good idea as the longer it goes on the worse it gets. 

I would definitely open up to your partner.just don't lie to them everything and tell them the reason why you have hidden it from them for so long.

Hope all goes well and you beat this horrible disease what we all suffer from 

 
Posted : 1st November 2024 5:31 pm
 Liz
(@co0ab4yxze)
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@8376ewft2v  sorry to hear that and totally get it as I fallen into the same trap. I have told my wife, she didn't leave me, it's a work in progress. I've got On Gordon Moody, they are amazing, early days for me and I'm still gambling but made steps in the right direction. Hope u are in ok.

 
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