Hi
Day one, it seems a lonely road but one I will travel. Â I am determined to change my life, I only hope that I can succeed.
it’s been a rollercoaster of a ride and I feel that I have reached a limit.  I need to take control and it’s one of the hardest things I have ever had to do.
I have admitted the problem to myself but no one else, my family or loved ones have no idea. Â I have terrible feelings of guilt, life would of been easier for them should I have made this decision earlier. Â But I am trying to be positive as now is better than never.
As I begin this journey probably at one of the lowest points in my life I am glad that there are forums and support available and hope that this will help me through the dark times
Today is day one, I will succeed one day at a time
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Well done ? give yourself a big pat on the back.
I am in a similar position. No-one knows about the gambling. No-one knows about the debt. It can be a lonely place full of self hate and guilt. It is starting to get better though. It's just a shame it had to come to this.
One day at a time.
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Wishing you all the best. I'm the exact same day 1 again after relapses.Â
Self excluded from the adult gaming centre in town. Signed up to moses for bookies and Sense for casinos. Got a few arcades to do at weekend and still have over a year left on gamstop. Also opening a mono account to block gambling transactions and limit withdrawals.Â
If you haven't I would strongly recommend getting as many blocks in place as possible.Â
Like you my partner, family, friends and daughter have never known the extent of my addiction I've always felt ashamed and ridden with guilt. Spending over a grand in a day when that takes my other half 3 weeks to earn that or could of spent it on a holiday or activities etc.Â
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Sorry rambling abit. You got this start strong, check in now and then as both on the same starting point.Â
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Well done both on taking the 1st steps - things do get easier but agree that you need to ensure that you have the right blocks in place.
Don't try and reach the sky too soon and take one day at a time tick off the passing days, they will quickly turn into weeks, into months and hopefully into years
As hard as it sounds i would if at all possible find someone to open up to whether that be friends or family. I am approaching my 1year GF and the best thing i did was open up at the outset - the sheer struggle of trying to do it alone along with all the guilt and shame was too much and things certainly got easier over time as those feelings eased - it won't be easy to start but you will definitely feel better and do not underestimate the support they can give you (acknowledge i dont know your exact situations)
Stay strong focus on the positives take up hobbies and try to remove yourself from any situation that may trigger your impulses
I wish you good luck on your journeys
@sam1987   My family don’t know either.  37 days now but it is a lonely place.  Good luck to you all
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