Don't want to but need to stop

hi crazy celt , i feel for you mate , i know exactly what your saying , was in tesco last night spending around £100 on food , baby milk , cat food and got all aggy with my gf then can stick £100 in a FOTB and lose it in 30sec spin and start chasing , i been arguing bad with my gf last week or so ( non gambling related , went on a different sort of binge) and i thought it was over and was in high street with my rent money really upset and could of say easily gone down the path you went but i didnt i forced myself intp the bank and paid it , now and i thank this forum a lot for that , all these posts spinning around in my mind of despair and worse and now bills be paid and food and still got bit of cash , to be honest im REALLY struggling to quit full stop and prob gamble again weekend cuz even thou course so much pain we love it and the addiction is indidvidual to every one , but draw strength of this , post on her get advice on here from real gamblers and you can build your life up , i think ur at rock bottom and need to quit totally and put barries in place and somehow sort ur rent out buddy , can you get credit ?/

just get back to me for now and take a day at time yh? im here 4 u

We have touched on this in our GA meeting recently. When I was gambling, I'd happily queue for 20 mins in a discount store to buy a 17p bottle of lukewarm water and then proceed to the bookies to put on £100 roulette spins.

Likewise, would moan at my wife for overspending on food on wanting to go out and do "normal" things with "normal" expediture.

My opinion is that I was in the grip of a frightening, insidious addiciton/illness that created insanity and confusion. The only way to resolve was to reset and retrain my thinking. GA worked for me (nearly 18 months GF) but there are other options out there.

hi gary u ok mate

i used tio be a GA member in southampton and really did get a lot from it and should get my a**e back there every sunday , but i feel i can manage it but im in the grip like you said the grip of insanity and compulsion comes over u , its hard to drag away

Yeh it's a bloody nightmare I'm ВЈ200 short . I get a decent wage but can't get credit due to defaulting constantly due to gambling. Even today was thinking stick ВЈ300 in and I could easily make the £200 needed . Absolutely hate this feeling .

My partner and daughter suffer due to this I can't remeber last time I spent quality time with my daughter as I'm always too tired due to hours I work but I can spend hours every week online or in bookies

hi mate

no point working so hard if you going squander it all , might aswell stay at home on benifits and spend quality tim with your girls , i know the temptation to put a big bet on is there as it goes from being fun to being critical on a spin of a roulette ball

prob best to pay landlord and ask if can pay the other £200 next month as you got paid wrong or something and then you will have to allcoate this month into the pot rather than gambling , then the hard work starts and start re building bank balances and relationships which you will do if you don,t gamble ,

Feel for you pal.

The worrying thing for me is the "Don't Want to" bit of your thread. If you don't want to, it's inevitable that you'll gamble again.

Honestly, sustained recovery improves every single aspect of your life.

Evening guys.

TC: I understand your thought process. I too get that old feeling about wanting to gamble socially, like you probably used to with your friends. It takes resolve but is possible to fight this urge. This is what I keep telling myself.

I'm only speaking about myself here but maybe you can relate - it seems I cannot gamble solely for the social aspect anymore and cannot walk away once I've lost. I used to be able to (or did I? There's no way I can remember anymore due to the countless hours lost).

Have you thought about giving control of your finances to your partner?

We're here to help mate, let us know how you're doing.

What do you like doing outside of gambling? What are your interests?

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HI Crazy Celt just read your story, It is so sad, I know the feeling when you have the feeling for gambling and throw away your hard earned money and leave the family short, I have only lost £50 tonight and feel sad, my son asked for a take away tonight and I said no and that would have been £5 and I lose £50 in 20mins. I have been so tight this week saving on lunch time and this £50 would have brought me lunch every day for a month, it is so silliy just cannot work it out. But keep strong mate